Welcome to Rise Above with Kevin Lanning. Join Kevin, a former Google executive in sobriety, as he shares inspiring stories of resilience. Each episode features individuals who have faced life’s toughest challenges—addiction, trauma, anxiety, and more—and emerged stronger. These conversations aren’t just about survival; they’re about thriving and finding practical solutions to rise above adversity. Kevin’s own journey through addiction and childhood trauma fuels his passion for sharing stories that uplift, educate, and inspire. Tune in and discover the strength within you.
I Was Homeless Shooting Fentanyl in Miami | Overdoses, Coma & How I Finally Got Sober
Jonah Fingerhood had a nearly perfect childhood in New Hampshire — until he was 16 and lost his older brother to substance abuse. A year later, a skateboarding accident and a compound fracture put a bottle of Percocet in his hands, and the pain of that grief, followed by his father's cancer diagnosis, finally had somewhere to go. He describes the first time he crushed and snorted a pill as the moment he'd "arrived" the feeling he wanted to chase for the rest of his life. That chase took everything. Percocet became heroin, heroin became a needle, and a move to Philadelphia and then Florida accelerated it all. By the summer of 2014 he was homeless on the streets of Miami, sleeping in a chair in Bayfront Park, panhandling every morning just to stave off withdrawal, and calling his father for hotel money he'd spend on dope. He survived an overdose that left him in a coma for a week. He cycled through arrests, rehabs, and relapses, and by October of 2019 — heartbroken, back on the streets, and certain he was too far gone — he had all but given up. Two things pulled him back: seeing a friend he'd been homeless with return from rehab completely transformed, and a fifty-something man in a state-funded rehab who had been coming back to that same program since before Jonah was born. Jonah decided he refused to become that man. He got sober on January 10th, 2020 — a date that, unbeknownst to him at the time, was the same day he'd later mark as the anniversary of his father's death. Now 6 years sober, Jonah went from being turned down by every employer because of his felonies to building a career, starting as a driver's helper at UPS the same day he left rehab. This is a story about grief, hitting the absolute bottom, and the hope that finally broke through. #RiseAbove #HeroinRecovery #FentanylRecovery #6YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery#SoberLife #OpioidRecovery #HomelessToHopeful #MensRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #JonahFingerhood #OverdoseSurvivor #GriefAndRecovery #SecondChances #NeverTooFarGone #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Addicted To Roxys At 17 For 15 Years | How Suboxone Kept Me Stuck & How I Finally Got Sober
Chris Broby grew up in Sarasota, Florida, in a good middle-class home — hardworking parents who built a furniture business, no trauma, no abuse. But he always felt a little like the black sheep, a small kid looking for a way to fit in, and when alcohol showed up in his early teens it filled that space instantly. By his senior year of high school, a Roxy at a party made him feel, in his words, the way he was always supposed to feel — and that was the beginning. What followed was a fast, brutal slide into opioid addiction, made worse by a string of deaths in a matter of weeks — a close friend killed crossing a road, his uncle, his old rowing coach — that piled grief on top of a young man already numbing everything he felt. He details a decade-plus odyssey through the pill mills of Florida, wilderness programs and Hazelden, sober livings full of unforgettable characters, Suboxone and Xanax, spice and kratom, and the self-corrected relapses in between. It culminates in a harrowing night during COVID — drinking beyond recognition, his memory in pieces — when police showed up at his door at four in the morning and his gun went off. No one was hurt, he was never charged, and dropping to his knees in his apartment afterward, he knew something had to give. The redemption is the best part. Chris turned the exact thing that nearly killed him into his purpose, building a career in medical and toxicology sales in the drug-testing world — his hard-won knowledge of addiction becoming, as he puts it, the first time he saw God working in his life. This is a raw, funny, wide-ranging conversation about grief, identity, and finding meaning on the other side. Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
My Little Brother Is Still In Active Addiction | What Addiction Does To The Whole Family
Michaela DeGier grew up in a close, loving family just outside Cambridge, Ontario — high school sweetheart parents still together after decades, three tight-knit siblings, summers in the forest behind the house. Her little brother was the baby of the family: the uncle who'd sit at a tiny table and have tea parties with his two-year-old niece, present at every birthday and holiday. Today he's in his early thirties and has been in active addiction for over a decade. This is a conversation about what addiction does to the people who love an addict — the family members Michaela calls the silent sufferers. She talks with unflinching honesty about the guilt she still carries from being the one who first smoked weed with him, the slow-dawning realization that her sister's missing Percocets meant something was wrong, the chaos of the family scrambling to force him into rehab, the relapses, and the heartbreak of watching him choose the street over the family that's right down the road. Most of all, it's about her own healing: learning that she couldn't shame him or love him into recovery, that tough love and boundaries aren't the same thing, and that the only thing she can be for her brother right now is his sister — with boundaries firmly in place, and the door still open. Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Was A Cop Taking 55 Pills A Day
Mike Morgan spent 30 years in law enforcement — a decade of it working the most violent part of one of the most violent cities in America. On his very first shift, he saw two homicides in five hours. He describes a career of natural deaths, suicides, fatal car accidents, and children he couldn't save — and the armor he'd started building as a kid, growing up with a hypercritical, verbally abusive father, only got thicker with every scene. That armor had a cost. Mike traces his addiction back to the pills he was prescribed as a teenager and the painkillers that made him feel, for the first time, like everything was okay. Over the years tramadol became the thing that held him together — until it was pulling him apart. At his worst he was taking as many as 55 pills a day and suffered nine seizures, including one in a GameStop and one that slammed his face into a countertop, before he finally looked at his ex-wife and said the words he'd avoided for years: I need help. He got sober in 2012 — reportedly one of the first people his insurance company had ever sent to rehab for tramadol. But sobriety was only half the story. After being medically retired, the anger and grief he'd channeled into the job for three decades had nowhere to go, and a nervous breakdown forced him to finally face the PTSD he'd carried for years. This episode goes into the healing work that followed, including his experience with plant-based medicine. Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Grew Up In A Crack Addicted Household | What It Really Does To A Child
Indee Fields was four years old the first time she watched her mother hide from witches that weren't there. Her mom was smoking crack. By ten, Indee was the one running the household — bathing and feeding her younger siblings, breaking up the violence between her mother and stepfather, and calling the police when she was told to, only to be blamed for it the next morning. The rule was simple: you don't tell anyone what happens in this house. This is a raw conversation about what it actually does to a child to grow up as the parent in their own home — the hypervigilance, the caretaking, the way chaos starts to feel like the only thing you know how to operate in. It's also a story of breaking the cycle: how Indee got out, what she's unlearning, and the father who got sober and reminded her of her own worth. For every adult still carrying what they survived as a kid — this one's for you. #RiseAbove #AdultChildrenOfAlcoholics #ACOA #GrowingUpWithAddicts #FamilyDisease #CrackAddiction#BreakingTheCycle #ChildhoodTrauma #Parentification #GenerationalTrauma #TraumaRecovery#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #IndeeFields #HealingJourney #Codependency #SurvivorStory#DomesticViolenceAwareness #YouAreNotAlone #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Ketamine Psychosis | My Ketamine Addiction Was Destroying My Organs | How I Got Sober
Sydney Steele was prescribed Ritalin at five years old, just as she was finishing preschool. From there came Concerta, Vyvanse, and Adderall — a stimulant cycle that ran nearly nonstop through her childhood, alongside psychiatric diagnoses she now believes were largely a reaction to the medication itself. She made it through Syracuse as an illustration major with a real gift and a growing art business — while binge drinking and discovering she loved pills. Then she tried ketamine. A friend had warned her she'd never be able to handle it. He was right. She describes it as the drug she'd been looking for her whole life, and within a few years her tolerance was, in her words, like a 700-pound man's. What almost nobody talks about is what ketamine does to the body. Sydney does. She describes cramps that escalated into 72 hours of pain so severe she was screaming through a heating pad, five ER visits in a single year, and a urologist warning her she was headed for surgery — all while holding a 200-pill Klonopin prescription from a psychiatrist she'd told, in plain words, that she was using every day. Her mother noticed a prescription refill Sydney never picked up. That was the thread that pulled her into treatment. Today Sydney is nearly two years sober, president of the Caron Alumni Association, and back to making the art she loves. Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. #RiseAbove #KetamineAddiction #Ketamine #AddictionRecovery #RecoveryIsPossible #WomenInRecovery#2YearsSober #SoberLife #Caron #PrescribedYoung #ADHDMedication #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth#KetamineRecovery #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #SydneySteele #OverPrescribed #SoberCurious#OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
A Decade Long Addiction to Opioids | How I Broke the Chains and Got Clean & Sober
By June of 2017, Billy Rich had nothing left in his own eyes. A decade into opioid addiction, isolated in a blacked-out bedroom in Rhode Island, cut off from his family, grieving his father, buried under legal fear and a mental state he describes as beyond anything he'd known — he had decided he was done. He didn't see a recovery option. He didn't think there was a way out. He survived that night. Something he can only describe as divine intervention pulled him back at the last possible second, and for the first time he heard a different thought: maybe I'm still here for a reason. His mother found him, got on the phone calling every detox in a fifty-mile radius, and Billy walked into treatment the next day. What followed was the slow, unglamorous work of rebuilding a person — eighteen weeks in an outpatient program when the standard was six, learning who he was without a substance for the first time since he was a teenager, walking miles to and from treatment every day because his life was in pieces. Nine years later, Billy is engaged, has a two-year-old, has built a career with more opportunity than he ever imagined, and walked into this interview with a smile he couldn't have pictured back then. By June of 2017, Billy Rich had nothing left in his own eyes. A decade into opioid addiction, isolated in a blacked-out bedroom in Rhode Island, cut off from his family, grieving his father, buried under legal fear and a mental state he describes as beyond anything he'd known — he had decided he was done. He didn't see a recovery option. He didn't think there was a way out.He survived that night. Something he can only describe as divine intervention pulled him back at the last possible second, and for the first time he heard a different thought: maybe I'm still here for a reason. His mother found him, got on the phone calling every detox in a fifty-mile radius, and Billy walked into treatment the next day.What followed was the slow, unglamorous work of rebuilding a person — eighteen weeks in an outpatient program when the standard was six, learning who he was without a substance for the first time since he was a teenager, walking miles to and from treatment every day because his life was in pieces. Nine years later, Billy is engaged, has a two-year-old, has built a career with more opportunity than he ever imagined, and walked into this interview with a smile he couldn't have pictured back then. Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. #RiseAbove #Recovery #9YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery #SoberLife#MentalHealthAwareness #SuicidePrevention #YouAreNotAlone #HopeInRecovery #OpioidRecovery#SobrietyJourney #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #BillyRich #988 #SecondChances #KeepGoing #MensMentalHealth #ThereIsHope Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
What Leads Someone To Plan a School Shooting?...The Early Warning Signs Everyone Missed
⚠️ This episode is presented for educational and prevention purposes only. In 2018, Brendan Vaughan was arrested for making terroristic threats against his high school. We sat down with him — and previously with the detective who arrested him — not to sensationalize what happened, but to understand the early warning signs that might help someone intervene before a young person reaches that point. If this helps prevent even one tragedy, it will have done its job. Brendan grew up an only child in Orange County, New York, raised by two alcoholic parents in a home where, by his own account, he never saw human connection modeled. A severe stutter and later-diagnosed autism left him profoundly isolated. His father was physically abusive during his drinking years; his mother later drank herself to death. He speaks candidly about the things that, in hindsight, were red flags: being put on SSRIs young, an escalating obsession with true crime, the empathy problems he now takes responsibility for, and the deep resentment he felt toward peers after an injury took away sports — his one connection to others. He walks through how the planning began, the classmates who reported him (which he now says was exactly right), and the multiple points where the adults around him could have intervened. Today Brendan takes full responsibility for the fear he caused. This is a hard conversation, but an important one for any parent, educator, or young person trying to understand what these warning signs actually look like from the inside. Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. #RiseAbove #SchoolSafety #ViolencePrevention #WarningSigns #MentalHealthAwareness #SandyHookPromise#KnowTheSigns #Accountability #TraumaAndBehavior #YouthMentalHealth #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning#SchoolShootingPrevention #SeeSomethingSaySomething #Autism #Isolation #SecondChances #Rehabilitation#Parenting #Prevention Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
She Sold Her Body For Heroin & Crack, Totaled 7 Cars & Had 5 Arrests In A Month | Now 5 Years Sober
Brittany Logan grew up an only child split between two households — her mother's world of structure and discipline, and her alcoholic father's world of no rules and chaos. By 15 she was drinking before class and never wanted to stop. She got kicked out of art school, was arrested five times in a single month, and moved from blues to Oxys to heroin — a drug she says she first heard glamorized inside her own rehab. For eight years she ran on methadone and weekend heroin. Her final year spiraled into crack addiction and selling her body full-time through the COVID pandemic, cycling in and out of psych wards, certain she was going to die. It took a move to Florida, more relapses, and finally a total surrender — she was simply too exhausted to fight anymore — before two girls outside a 12-step clubhouse showed her that people really could be happy without drugs and alcohol. Now 5 years clean and sober, Brittany has done the work, rebuilt her family relationships, and lives a life she never believed was possible. Brittany Logan grew up an only child split between two households — her mother's world of structure and discipline, and her alcoholic father's world of no rules and chaos. By 15 she was drinking before class and never wanted to stop. She got kicked out of art school, was arrested five times in a single month, and moved from blues to Oxys to heroin — a drug she says she first heard glamorized inside her own rehab.For eight years she ran on methadone and weekend heroin. Her final year spiraled into crack addiction and selling her body full-time through the COVID pandemic, cycling in and out of psych wards, certain she was going to die. It took a move to Florida, more relapses, and finally a total surrender — she was simply too exhausted to fight anymore — before two girls outside a 12-step clubhouse showed her that people really could be happy without drugs and alcohol.Now 5 years clean and sober, Brittany has done the work, rebuilt her family relationships, and lives a life she never believed was possible. This Episode Is Sponsored By NOCD A lot of people who've done the hard work of getting sober still struggle with unwanted, intrusive thoughts that bring guilt and shame and keep coming back. For some people, that may be OCD — and in recovery it often goes unrecognized for years because it can look like anxiety or feel like part of the process. The good news is it's treatable. NOCD is the world's leading provider of OCD treatment, with licensed therapists who specialize in ERP (exposure and response prevention) therapy through live, face-to-face virtual sessions, plus support between sessions. NOCD is covered by insurance for over 138 million Americans. 👉 Book a free 15-minute call at: https://www.treatmyocd.com/ #RiseAbove #WomenInRecovery #HeroinRecovery #CrackAddiction #5YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible#AddictionRecovery #SoberLife #AlcoholRecovery #Methadone #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth#SurrenderToWin #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #BrittanyLogan #FromRockBottom #OverdoseAwareness #OneDayAtATime #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Drank a Bottle For 700 Straight Days and Lost Everything | How I Finally Got Sober
Sponsored by Caron Treatment Centers My recovery journey began at Caron Treatment Centers, and the care I received there changed the course of my life. That's why I'm proud to partner with Caron. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, Caron has been helping individuals and families find hope and lasting recovery for nearly 70 years. They are in-network with all major insurance providers, and same-day admission is available. ➡️ Learn more: https://www.caron.org/lp/rise-above 📞 Call Caron today: 855-352-0103 Recovery starts with taking the first step. Brian Hughes grew up in a quintessential New England town on the water, the son of loving parents — and the great-grandson, grandson, and son of alcoholics. His mother would go on to get sober and become a doctor specializing in addiction, quietly paving a way Brian couldn't yet see. He blacked out the first time he ever drank, at 13, was found passed out in a shower with his head split open, and was back on the basketball court the next morning with no real consequences. That, he says, was the story of his life for decades: no consequences, until there were. Brian built a successful career in the beer and alcohol industry, married his valedictorian sweetheart, raised four children, and eventually sold his business for a small fortune. And then the free-fall came. An affair. Drinking around the clock. Within about a year of having a beautiful home and millions in the bank, he was homeless. His drinking escalated to 700 straight days. The bottom, when it finally came, was total: federal prison, where he spent 44 days in general population detoxing on a bare metal slab, the only English speaker in a cell block, certain at his lowest that he wanted to end his life. What turned it was nine months of treatment — long enough, he says, when 28 days never was — a therapist he still sees today, and the slow rebuilding of a man. He got out with nothing, walked to a job cleaning up the blood and cartilage in a grocery store meat department for $13.65 an hour, and felt more pride in keeping his word to himself than in any paycheck he'd ever earned. From there he found his way to helping others, becoming a recovery coach, and eventually working at Caron, one of the institutions that had once saved his own life. Now with years of hard-won sobriety, Brian is a wounded healer using his wounds to help others — and this conversation is a masterclass in how far down the disease can take a person, and how completely a life can be rebuilt. #RiseAbove #AlcoholRecovery #SoberLife #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery#HighFunctioningAlcoholic #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #FromRockBottom #WoundedHealer #RecoveryCoach#PrisonToPurpose #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #BrianHughes #Caron #SecondChances #EstimableActs#NewEnglandRecovery #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Was Buying Kratom At The Gas Station Every Morning Just To Function....It Destroyed Me
Matt Von Boecklin grew up outside Seattle, raised by a single mother after his father suffered a mental break when Matt was a toddler and had to be cared for in a home. A socially anxious kid always reaching for the edge of the cool crowd, Matt found early that alcohol quieted that feeling — and years later, a motorcycle accident introduced him to opiates and opened a door he says was impossible to un-see. What followed was a global, restless run — tramadol by the pocketful in Mexico, a rock-bottom withdrawal alone in Nairobi crying on a shower floor, and finally the substance almost nobody talks about honestly: kratom, and its concentrated form 7-OH, sold legally over the counter at gas stations and smoke shops. This episode is essential listening on a crisis that's exploding right now, because Matt lived it and beat it. He describes buying "feel free" bottles and the hardest-hitting extract shots every single morning just to get through work meetings, seeing double, losing his balance, hiding it from the fiancée he loved, and the shame of driving a mile and a half for a fix in the time it should've taken to grab a bagel. Here's what makes his story valuable: Matt is a chemical engineer, and he approached quitting like an engineer. He built himself a "quit kit" of non-prescription supplements to manage the brutal withdrawals, did the reading, and finally threw the last shot in the trash before a trivia night with his fiancée. Now 2 years sober, he can speak with rare clarity about how these legal products hook people who never thought of themselves as addicts — and exactly what it takes to get free. If you or someone you love is stuck on kratom or 7-OH and telling yourself it's fine because it's legal, this is the episode to hear. Matt Von Boecklin grew up outside Seattle, raised by a single mother after his father suffered a mental break when Matt was a toddler and had to be cared for in a home. A socially anxious kid always reaching for the edge of the cool crowd, Matt found early that alcohol quieted that feeling — and years later, a motorcycle accident introduced him to opiates and opened a door he says was impossible to un-see.What followed was a global, restless run — tramadol by the pocketful in Mexico, a rock-bottom withdrawal alone in Nairobi crying on a shower floor, and finally the substance almost nobody talks about honestly: kratom, and its concentrated form 7-OH, sold legally over the counter at gas stations and smoke shops. This episode is essential listening on a crisis that's exploding right now, because Matt lived it and beat it. He describes buying "feel free" bottles and the hardest-hitting extract shots every single morning just to get through work meetings, seeing double, losing his balance, hiding it from the fiancée he loved, and the shame of driving a mile and a half for a fix in the time it should've taken to grab a bagel.Here's what makes his story valuable: Matt is a chemical engineer, and he approached quitting like an engineer. He built himself a "quit kit" of non-prescription supplements to manage the brutal withdrawals, did the reading, and finally threw the last shot in the trash before a trivia night with his fiancée. Now 2 years sober, he can speak with rare clarity about how these legal products hook people who never thought of themselves as addicts — and exactly what it takes to get free.If you or someone you love is stuck on kratom or 7-OH and telling yourself it's fine because it's legal, this is the episode to hear. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #KratomAddiction #7OH #KratomRecovery #2YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery#SoberLife #LegalOpioid #OpioidRecovery #MensRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #MattVonBoecklin #FeelFree #OverTheCounterAddiction #QuitKit #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
My Heart Stopped From A Fentanyl Overdose & I Woke Up From A Coma Having To Learn To Walk Again
If you caught Brenda Zane's episode a few months ago — the mother who shared the harrowing story of her son's addiction and near-death — this is that son. Enzo is here to tell it from the inside. Enzo grew up in Seattle with two loving, supportive parents and a natural entrepreneurial streak, running little candy schemes and haircut businesses as a kid. But a fascination with the "forbidden" turned into weed by middle school, then cocaine and Xanax, then the pills that got too expensive — and finally, in 2017, fentanyl, right as it was flooding the streets and long before most people knew what it was. His first overdose landed him in the hospital; he walked out and used again the same day, telling no one. His second nearly ended everything. Found in a car with no pulse, foam coming from his mouth, his heart had stopped long enough that doctors placed him in a three-day medical coma to keep his organs from swelling. When they took him off the ventilator, no one knew if he'd breathe on his own, or what mental capacity he'd have if he woke. He woke up unable to recognize his own family, his hands and feet curled from lack of blood flow, and had to spend the next month learning to walk again. That was his last time using. Now 9 years sober, Enzo has rebuilt his life around the lessons that saved it — and this conversation is a rare chance to hear a survival story this extreme told with humor, gratitude, and hard-won wisdom. This one is proof of just how close the line is, and how completely a life can come back from the other side of it. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https:https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #FentanylOverdose #FentanylRecovery #9YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery#SoberLife #OverdoseSurvivor #NarcanSavesLives #MensRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #AddictionDoesntDiscriminate #MiracleStory #SecondChances#FentanylAwareness #LearningToWalkAgain #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Was Spending $300 A Day On 7OH....Legal Gas Station Hero!n
Nick Thornton grew up outside Portland, Maine, raised by his grandparents after his mother's addiction pulled her out of his life. He was warned early that with both parents struggling, he could never drink — a warning he took as a challenge. By 14 he was drinking and smoking weed daily, and from the very first time, he always went harder than everyone around him. What followed was a decade-plus run through Oxy and blues, cocaine, a move to California, a marriage, a business, and a drinking problem he was certain he'd beaten — right up until he replaced it with something he could buy legally at the store. This episode goes deep on the drug almost nobody's talking about honestly yet: 7-OH, the concentrated kratom derivative sold at gas stations and vape shops that Nick describes as, functionally, a legal opioid. He was taking 400 to 500 milligrams a day, living on an eight-hour timer, waking up in full withdrawal in the middle of the night, and dropping three to four thousand dollars a month — all on a product sitting on a shelf next to the register. He talks candidly about the nodding off at his desk, snapping at his kids, the brutal withdrawals when Florida made 7-OH illegal, and finally getting honest with his wife and business partner — both of whom already knew. Now 9 months clean and sober, Nick is rebuilding, running his company, and speaking out about a substance he believes is quietly hooking a lot of people who don't realize what they're actually taking. If you or someone you love is using kratom or 7-OH and telling yourself it's harmless because it's legal, this is the episode to hear. #RiseAbove #7OH #KratomAddiction #7Hydroxymitragynine #9MonthsSober #RecoveryIsPossible#AddictionRecovery #SoberLife #LegalOpioid #OpioidRecovery #MensRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #NickThornton #KratomRecovery #SoberDad #HotTopic #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Was Doing Cocaine Every Single Day For 3 Years & Had A Seizure At My Desk....and I Kept Using
From the outside Gregg looked like he had it handled — a family, a career, a wife he'd known since middle school. Underneath it he was doing cocaine every single day, and had been for years. He'll tell you he never fit the picture of what people imagine an addict looks like. He wasn't running around wired; cocaine actually quieted the chaos in his head, turned down the noise, and let him not feel. And once he started, he couldn't stop. For about two and a half to three years he used daily, isolating, trying to solve the problem himself without ever saying it out loud to another person. His marriage was going south, his self-worth was gone, and he'd gotten to the point where he couldn't even look at himself in the mirror to shave. Then, in the middle of a run, he had a seizure and woke up on the floor, ending up in the hospital. And even that didn't stop him — he kept using for days afterward. His actual bottom came quietly, sitting on his son's Little League bench, unable to keep his eyes open, thinking to himself what a piece of garbage he'd become. A few days later, something a podcast host said cut through: you can't start to fix the problem until you say it out loud to someone else. Gregg picked up the phone, called a friend who's now his sponsor, and for the first time felt the weight lift. That friend told him to go to treatment. He put up a fight for about thirty seconds — and then he went. Now 1 year sober, Gregg has his marriage, his kids, and himself back — and he's learned that the drugs were never really the problem. They were his broken solution to a life he didn't know how to live. This one is for the high-functioning addict who looks fine on the outside and is quietly falling apart. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #CocaineAddiction #1YearSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery #SoberLife#HighFunctioningAddict #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #FatherhoodInRecovery #FromRockBottom #SoberDad#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #GreggHayim #SelfWorth #CocaineRecovery #OneDayAtATime #NewYorkRecovery #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
He Was Drinking Every Day & Ready To Give Up | The One Thing That Gave Him Hope
Pete Kuc was living a life that looked like the movies. A young real estate hotshot in northeast Florida, he was making a fortune, flying on private jets to the Bahamas, entertaining high-end clients on the waterfront, and running on Adderall and alcohol to keep the whole machine going. He describes it as his own Wolf of Wall Street era — money, parties, and the feeling that as long as he was performing, nothing else mattered. Underneath it was a man who had built his entire sense of worth on being the athlete, then the businessman, then the provider — and had no idea who he was without the win. When the market crashed, it all came apart. A $150 million company gone in a year. Real estate leveraged to the hilt, upside down. He went from living like a billionaire to $7 in his pocket in eighteen months. In the middle of the collapse came a one-night stand, a hidden child he tried to keep secret for years, and three kids across a chaotic stretch of his life. He kept trying to fix it himself — Tony Robbins seminars, masterminds, personal development, charts and triathlon training and sheer discipline — always convinced he could pull it out without surrendering. He never could. There were DUIs he talked his way out of, one he didn't, a marijuana company he built and lost, and a moment standing at the edge of the ocean, financially buried and drowning in shame, seriously thinking about swimming out and not coming back. He finally got sober at 44. Now 7 years in, Pete is married, raising five kids including a two-year-old son, and has built a life grounded in family, faith, and the recovery he spent decades running from. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #AlcoholRecovery #7YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery #SoberLife#HighFunctioningAlcoholic #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #FatherhoodInRecovery #FromRockBottom#SoberDad #RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #PeteKuc #SelfWorth #FaithInRecovery #WolfOfWallStreet #SecondChances #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
From Cooking Meth at 19 to Finding Sobriety | Colton's Recovery Story
Colton's addiction began long before adulthood. By 17, he was injecting drugs. Before turning 20, he was cooking meth, living in violent drug houses, escaping juvenile detention, and eventually serving time in prison. He shares stories of psychosis, crime, near-death experiences, and the devastating reality of meth addiction.Today, nearly two years sober, Colton has transformed his life. He helps others in recovery, hosts the Broken Chain Podcast, and is working toward opening a recovery home so others can find the hope he once thought was impossible. His journey is proof that no one is beyond redemption.If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction, know that recovery is possible. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
He Went From Princeton & Harvard Law To Shooting Heroin On Skid Row
Damon Watson did everything right. Harvard-Westlake prep school. Princeton, where he was a national debate champion. Harvard Law School. A career as an intellectual property litigator at Latham & Watkins, one of the biggest law firms in Los Angeles. On paper, his life was the American dream. Then five people close to him died in six years — his mom, his dad, his grandmother and more. His marriage fell apart. And the man who had been so terrified of becoming his alcoholic mother that he was the designated driver all through college took his first drink at 30, right after graduating law school. From there it moved fast: ecstasy at the clubs, then cocaine, then crystal meth, and finally a needle in his arm. Damon lost everything. He ended up homeless on Skid Row in downtown Los Angeles, shooting heroin and meth, fighting for his life, cycling through LA County Jail on check-fraud charges he committed just to survive. He describes sitting there with a needle in his arm, certain he was going to die in that spot — and something in him refusing to accept it. His way out came through a former debate rival turned friend running for city council, who flew him to New York, put him on her couch, bought him a suit, and helped him get clean. He never picked up again. Now 8.5 years sober, Damon works for the New Jersey Reentry Corporation helping formerly incarcerated people and those in recovery rebuild their lives — pulling together his Ivy League book smarts and his hard-won street smarts to give other people the second chance he got. This one is proof that addiction truly does not discriminate — and that no one is too far gone to come back. 🔔 Subscribe for new episodes every week📲 Follow Damon: @damonesquire (Instagram) | Damon Watson (LinkedIn)🌐 New Jersey Reentry Corporation Damon Watson did everything right. Harvard-Westlake prep school. Princeton, where he was a national debate champion. Harvard Law School. A career as an intellectual property litigator at Latham & Watkins, one of the biggest law firms in Los Angeles. On paper, his life was the American dream.Then five people close to him died in six years — his mom, his dad, his grandmother and more. His marriage fell apart. And the man who had been so terrified of becoming his alcoholic mother that he was the designated driver all through college took his first drink at 30, right after graduating law school. From there it moved fast: ecstasy at the clubs, then cocaine, then crystal meth, and finally a needle in his arm.Damon lost everything. He ended up homeless on Skid Row in downtown Los Angeles, shooting heroin and meth, fighting for his life, cycling through LA County Jail on check-fraud charges he committed just to survive. He describes sitting there with a needle in his arm, certain he was going to die in that spot — and something in him refusing to accept it.His way out came through a former debate rival turned friend running for city council, who flew him to New York, put him on her couch, bought him a suit, and helped him get clean. He never picked up again.Now 8.5 years sober, Damon works for the New Jersey Reentry Corporation helping formerly incarcerated people and those in recovery rebuild their lives — pulling together his Ivy League book smarts and his hard-won street smarts to give other people the second chance he got.This one is proof that addiction truly does not discriminate — and that no one is too far gone to come back.🔔 Subscribe for new episodes every week📲 Follow Damon: @damonesquire (Instagram) | Damon Watson (LinkedIn)🌐 New Jersey Reentry Corporation If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #AddictionRecovery #HeroinRecovery #8YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #MethRecovery #SoberLife#SkidRow #HarvardLaw #AddictionDoesntDiscriminate #MensRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #Reentry#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #DamonWatson #SecondChances #FromRockBottom #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Prescribed Xanax at 14: How Addiction Led to 8 Arrests, Jail & Recovery
Haley Ragsdale grew up outside Nashville in the wealthy town of Franklin, a scared kid with crippling anxiety, insomnia, and a phobia of vomiting so severe it ruled her entire childhood. When her parents' divorce detonated — a five-year court battle that pulled her out of class for abuse checks and had her father legally removed from the home — the chaos swallowed the whole family. She found her escape at 15. A prescription for Xanax that a nurse practitioner had given her years earlier had been sitting untouched in her door. The night she finally tried it, she describes it as silence for the first time in her life — the racing thoughts and panic simply switched off. From that moment nothing else mattered. She was soon mixing benzos and alcohol, doctor-shopping, and spiraling into a decade of addiction. What followed was roughly seven or eight arrests, drinking and driving everywhere she went, and a DUI where — blacked out on upwards of 20 Xanax bars — she reversed through a gated community's steel gate not once but twice, totaling her mother's car. She flattened the sentence and spent four months in a Tennessee jail, where she was jumped and beaten by a fellow inmate who had confessed to murdering her boyfriend. After about a decade of trying to get clean, Haley moved to Florida in 2021 and finally found recovery. This week she celebrates one year clean and sober — and she's learned to sit with herself, love her own company, and build a healthy relationship for the first time in her life. This one is about anxiety, self-medication, and what it takes to finally quiet the noise without a substance. 🔔 Subscribe for new episodes every week📲 Follow Haley: @crookedcigarette (TikTok, Instagram & Facebook) If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #XanaxAddiction #WomenInRecovery #1YearSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery#SoberLife #BenzoRecovery #AnxietyAndAddiction #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #DUIStory#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #HaleyRagsdale #SelfMedication #JailStory #CrookedCigarette #FromChaosToCalm #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Addicted To Oxycodone At 15... Heroin On The Streets By 20
Clint Pitre was raised by his grandparents in Deltona, Florida, a Jehovah's Witness household where he always felt like something was off. By middle school he was smoking weed and drinking at the skate park. At 15 he took his first Oxycodone at a house party and knew instantly he wanted to feel that way for the rest of his life. By junior year he was so dependent that his own grandmother had to hand him a pill and tell him he was dope sick — that what he'd been taking was essentially synthetic heroin. What followed was roughly 15 years of addiction that bounced him between Florida and Montana, chasing and running at the same time. He moved to heroin when the pills ran dry, lived on the streets, stole to fund his hustle, cycled through jail, and got a gun put in his face during a robbery in Montana while high out of his mind. He was found overdosed in his car in Orlando, woke up to paramedics, and still wasn't done. His worst run came last — a year so dark he was waking up crying from nightmares he'd never had before. On July 7, 2023, with nothing but a duffel bag holding a pair of boxers and some Air Jordans, the pain finally got great enough. His grandmother passed away while he was in treatment, but not before knowing he was finally getting help. Now 3 years sober, Clint works at Compassion Behavioral Health, answering the phone at 1am for people at their lowest and getting them into treatment — the same lifeline someone once was for him. If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #HeroinRecovery #OpioidRecovery #3YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery#SoberLife #DopeSick #MensRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth #OverdoseSurvivor #RiseAbovePodcast#KevinLanning #ClintPitre #CompassionBehavioralHealth #ServiceWork #FromTheStreetsToSober #NeverGiveUp#OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I Was A Pastor Secretly Addicted To Sex & Affairs While Preaching Every Sunday
Jason Lyles was adopted at 14 days old and raised in a strict Southern Baptist home. He read the Bible cover to cover by age eight and felt called to ministry. He also found pornography at ten or eleven, and from that moment he was chasing something he couldn't name — convinced each time that the next thing would finally fix him. Marriage at 19 would fix it. Giving his life to God would fix it. But as his early sponsor told him, you never leave your addictions in the driveway. Jason planted a church in rural Georgia, preaching to construction workers and cowboys on Tuesday nights, while secretly carrying on affairs. Eventually his double life reached a breaking point that he describes with brutal honesty: living with his girlfriend in her apartment and driving to church on Sunday mornings to preach a sermon while his wife and kids sat in the pews trying to hold the facade together. When it all came apart — the church, the marriage, his job, and the death of his mother — Jason found himself lying on his side one Wednesday afternoon with a suicide fully planned, feeling not worthless but coldly logical about it. That was his turning point. A chance training on nervous system regulation introduced him to cold water, breathwork, and meditation, and on October 19, 2020, he got sober in a way he never had before. Now 6 years sober, Jason runs Sacred Grit, coaching men through addiction using nervous system regulation, daily practice, and accountability — and teaching them how to put their feet on the floor each morning and do one thing that makes them feel loved by themselves. This one is about the addictions nobody talks about, the danger of believing the next thing will fix you, and finding a way out that finally works. 🔔 Subscribe for new episodes every week🌐 thesacredgrit.com🎙️ The Sacred Grit Podcast Jason Lyles was adopted at 14 days old and raised in a strict Southern Baptist home. He read the Bible cover to cover by age eight and felt called to ministry. He also found pornography at ten or eleven, and from that moment he was chasing something he couldn't name — convinced each time that the next thing would finally fix him. Marriage at 19 would fix it. Giving his life to God would fix it. But as his early sponsor told him, you never leave your addictions in the driveway.Jason planted a church in rural Georgia, preaching to construction workers and cowboys on Tuesday nights, while secretly carrying on affairs. Eventually his double life reached a breaking point that he describes with brutal honesty: living with his girlfriend in her apartment and driving to church on Sunday mornings to preach a sermon while his wife and kids sat in the pews trying to hold the facade together.When it all came apart — the church, the marriage, his job, and the death of his mother — Jason found himself lying on his side one Wednesday afternoon with a suicide fully planned, feeling not worthless but coldly logical about it. That was his turning point. A chance training on nervous system regulation introduced him to cold water, breathwork, and meditation, and on October 19, 2020, he got sober in a way he never had before.Now 6 years sober, Jason runs Sacred Grit, coaching men through addiction using nervous system regulation, daily practice, and accountability — and teaching them how to put their feet on the floor each morning and do one thing that makes them feel loved by themselves.This one is about the addictions nobody talks about, the danger of believing the next thing will fix you, and finding a way out that finally works.🔔 Subscribe for new episodes every week🌐 thesacredgrit.com🎙️ The Sacred Grit Podcast If you or someone you love is struggling with addiction or mental health, you don’t have to do it alone. Reach out to my partners at Compassion Behavioral Health. They offer individualized care and a full continuum of treatment. Call or Text: 844-443-5669 Visit: https: https://compassionbehavioralhealth.com/rise-above/ #RiseAbove #SexAddiction #PornAddiction #6YearsSober #RecoveryIsPossible #AddictionRecovery #SoberLife#NervousSystemRegulation #MensRecovery #FaithAndRecovery #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealth#RiseAbovePodcast #KevinLanning #JasonLyles #SacredGrit #PastorStory #Breathwork #SuicidePrevention #OneMoreThing Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
