This is "Our Whole Childhood" - hosted by Patrick Teahan - where we discuss everything childhood trauma, from the issues that we experience, to the stuff that comes up in our families, and to the healing work that we're all trying to get done. No clinical jargon—just real, personal stories of growing up with childhood trauma and the journey to healing. Learn more at www.patrickteahan.com
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores the hidden psychological barriers that prevent childhood trauma survivors from reaching their personal and professional goals. While often labeled simply as imposter syndrome, this struggle is rarely just a lack of confidence. Instead, it is a complex intersection of survival mechanisms, unresolved grief, and toxic family system dynamics. Patrick breaks down four specific patterns that keep survivors anchored in familiar dysfunction rather than risking the vulnerability required for success. What You Will Learn: The Suffering Trap: Understanding the paradox of having a high tolerance for familiar pain but a low tolerance for the new discomfort necessary for growth and change. Perfectly Incapable: How toxic family branding and assigned roles (such as the scapegoat or the laborer) disconnect survivors from their true capabilities and establish invisible ceilings. Can I Keep Up the Facade?: The pervasive anxiety that success is fragile and the distorted belief that anything less than perfect, unwavering effort makes you an imposter. Why Bother?: How the heartbreak of not being seen or celebrated by an apathetic or abusive family of origin neutralizes the drive to achieve major life milestones. Personal success is highly subjective, whether it means getting out of debt, pursuing an advanced degree, or simply living with more calmness instead of operating in messy survival mode. By recognizing how a wounded inner child confuses new discomfort with a literal threat to survival, survivors can begin to rewrite these outdated narratives. Healing involves seeking safe, external mirroring to build a grounded sense of self and reconnecting with your inherent capabilities. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
When Therapy is Actually GOOD
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, steps away from the teleprompter to share real testimonials from his community about the life-changing impact of good therapy. While discussions around mental health often focus on poor fits or damaging experiences, Patrick highlights what it looks and feels like to find a safe and competent practitioner. He introduces a lighthearted analogy comparing a great therapist to a trusted mechanic, someone who understands the complex machinery of your history, manages your emotions with compassion, and is honest about the repairs needed to keep you moving forward. By exploring stories of profound healing, Patrick unpacks how effective therapy directly counters the anti-process environment of a toxic family system. Listeners will learn: The Power of Pacing: How somatic experiencing helps trauma survivors slow down and realize that processing intense flashbacks is manageable and safe. Autonomy Through Silence: Why a therapist who listens without judgment and pauses before responding builds client autonomy far better than one who immediately offers unsolicited advice. Recalibrating the Nervous System: How childhood gaslighting miscalibrates bodily sensations and why effective therapy focuses on reconnecting with the physical body to disarm triggers. Unlearning Toxic Narratives: The importance of an active therapist who challenges normalized family abuse, such as clearly identifying constant yelling as verbal abuse. The Inner Circle Boundary: How to establish mental boundaries by reserving conflict and emotional bandwidth only for those in your deepest, most trusted inner circle. Releasing the Burden of Fixing: Why realizing that you had nothing to work with regarding your family of origin removes the deep guilt and shame of not being able to save or change them. Patrick also reflects on his own transformative experiences with his clinical mentor and details how finding a therapist who acts as a safe home base can radically alter your recovery trajectory. For those not yet ready for individual therapy or those seeking additional structured support, Patrick shares information about his healing membership and his recently published clinical assessment designed to measure toxic family environments. Keywords: childhood trauma, trauma therapy, somatic experiencing, nervous system regulation, toxic family systems, inner child work, mental boundaries, family estrangement, trauma recovery, meaning making, boundary setting. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
The Mind of the Artist w/ William Todd Schultz
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, is joined by personality psychologist William Todd Schultz to explore the complicated emotional landscape of family estrangement and how early childhood loss intersects with creative expression. Todd specializes in profiles of artists and has published books such as Tiny Terror on Truman Capote, An Emergency in Slow Motion on Diane Arbus, Torment Saint on Elliott Smith, and The Mind of the Artist. Together, they detail how childhood trauma and the death of an estranged toxic family member elicit complex forms of grief. They introduce the concept of ambiguous loss and how individuals use creative mediums to process unresolved family systems issues. The episode begins by unpacking a complex dynamic: the dual reality of an abusive sibling being both a perpetrator and a victim within a dysfunctional family hierarchy. Patrick and Todd use this concept to illustrate why survivors often experience a muted emotional response when an estranged family member physically passes, as the psychological passing of the relationship occurred long ago. Listeners will learn: Ambiguous Loss and Estrangement: What it truly means to experience the death of a toxic sibling and why a blank emotional response is a valid reaction to long-standing estrangement. The Dysfunctional Hierarchy: A look at multigenerational trauma and how abusive family members are often both perpetrators and victims. Creative Adaptation: How individuals with artistic inclinations use creative mediums to mentally conjure and process a lost relationship. Resurrecting in Fantasy: The psychological process of resurrecting the deceased through art to form a new and manageable dynamic that buffers the trauma of the loss. Historical Perspectives on Creativity: An exploration of the mid-century Berkeley psychological assessments on creative writers and how the field quantifies creative and psychological traits. Patrick and Todd also provide insights into meaning-making and grief-related growth, encouraging listeners to understand how modern psychological frameworks apply to these complex forms of grief. By understanding how trauma shapes personality, survivors can begin to safely set boundaries and use creative outlets for self-preservation and healing. Keywords: childhood trauma, family estrangement, ambiguous loss, creative expression, meaning-making, multigenerational trauma, grief-related growth, personality psychology, toxic family systems, boundary setting. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Explode or Shut Down? The 2 Types of Repressed Rage
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores the profound impact of rage as a byproduct of childhood trauma, detailing how unsafe environments force children to either weaponize or absorb intense emotional energy. He introduces the concept of inward and outward rage, moving beyond the stigma of "anger issues" to focus on the underground emotional deposits that develop when a child is erased, ignored, or exposed to volatility. The episode begins by unpacking a complex dynamic: the four specific childhood situations that fuel adult rage. Patrick uses these roots to illustrate how survivors often struggle with a "well of childhood" that runs their present-day reactions, where symptoms like road rage or chronic exhaustion are actually valid byproducts of old injustices. Listeners will learn: The Four Situations of Rage: Why adults not doing the right thing, deep injustice, volatile or passive parenting, and being "erased" create a lifelong emotional burden. Outward Rage (Fire at Will): The reality of being "wired for anger," characterized by a low threshold for frustration, self-righteousness, and the tendency for rage to come out sideways in adulthood. Inward Rage (The Superhero Absorber): Exploring why some survivors never feel anger at all, instead acting like a "black hole" that absorbs dangerous energy at the expense of their own physical and mental health. The Erasure Effect: What it truly means to be invisible as a child and how having your needs or feelings wiped out leads to a massive sense of adult injustice. Situations Over Symptoms: Why understanding your story is more vital for recovery than simply managing symptoms, as the "what happened" is the source of the "what is felt." Reclaiming and Releasing: How healing involves Jane-style pressure release for those with outward rage and Beth-style "reclaiming of the f-you" for those who have gone numb. Patrick also provides a case study of two sisters to highlight how the same traumatic environment can produce polar opposite rage strategies. By understanding how these survival tactics were formed, listeners can begin to move toward a healthy middle ground where anger is a tool for advocacy rather than a source of shame or self-sabotage. Keywords: childhood trauma, repressed rage, inward rage, outward rage, inner child work, emotional neglect, parentification, nervous system, toxic family systems, trauma recovery, justice-based anger. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Why You Blame Yourself for Everything
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores the profound impact of growing up in an abusive or neglectful environment, detailing how childhood trauma survivors often struggle with intense self-blame and self-hatred. He introduces the concept of emotional math, moving beyond simple advice to just be kinder to yourself, focusing instead on the deep rooted self-contempt that develops when children lack a healthy adult guide. The episode begins by unpacking a complex dynamic: the development of damaged perceptions about personal self-worth. Patrick uses this concept to illustrate how normal human needs and mistakes are calculated as evidence of being fundamentally flawed, trapping survivors in a painful but brilliant childhood survival mechanism used to avoid the terrifying reality of having unsafe parents. Listeners will learn: Emotional Math: What this concept is and how lacking a healthy frame of reference distorts a child's perception of reality. Signs of Unrelenting Self-Criticism: Common indicators that you are too hard on yourself, such as feeling ashamed for not instantly mastering a new hobby or carrying the weight of other people's emotions. The Impact of Neglect: How both direct and indirect neglect teach children to view their basic needs and personal interests as immense burdens. Family System Roles: The ways the scapegoat and golden child utilize self-criticism and perfectionism to stay safe and secure conditional love. Self-Blame as a Shield: Why absorbing the blame during childhood was an essential protective strategy to shield the nervous system from the heartbreak of an emotionally volatile parent. Honoring the Inner Child: How to start validating your inner child for creating these survival tactics so you can begin rewriting your emotional equations. Patrick also provides a guided reflection to help listeners express gratitude to their inner child for their protective instincts, paving the way to replace self-hatred with self-compassion. By understanding how these feelings developed, survivors who struggle with perfectionism, ruminate over past social mistakes, or constantly feel like a burden can find clarity and begin to change the narrative. Keywords: childhood trauma, self-hate, emotional math, inner child work, emotional neglect, family roles, trauma recovery, self-blame, toxic family systems Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Top 3 Signs of Growing up Too Fast
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores the profound impact of unsafe home environments, detailing how childhood trauma forces kids to trade their early years for survival. He introduces the concept of the survival exchange, moving beyond simple symptom management to focus on the deep rooted hypervigilance that develops when growing up around chaos, neglect, or emotional abuse. The episode begins by unpacking a complex dynamic: the development of a highly sensitive radar system in place of a grounded sense of self. Patrick uses this concept to illustrate how survivors often struggle to be fully present in adulthood, trapped in a lifelong transaction where they had to skip being a kid just to stay safe. Listeners will learn: The Survival Exchange: What it truly means to skip childhood and how early hypervigilance becomes a transactional tool for safety. The All Business Mindset: The first sign of growing up too fast, and why ambiguity, spontaneity, and simple enjoyment can trigger intense feelings of unsafety. The Old Soul Phenomenon: The second sign, exploring why survivors often feel alienated from their peers and identify as miniature adults due to early environmental demands. Downtime Anxiety: The third sign, detailing the deep discomfort and restlessness that arises during unstructured time and periods of rest. Reclaiming the Inner Child: How to start reversing these early transactions by actively reclaiming play, authentic connection, and true replenishment. Soothing the Vigilance: Why effective healing involves grief work and learning to soothe the hypervigilant parts of the nervous system like a frightened child. Patrick also provides practical reflections and prompts, encouraging listeners to practice tolerating the unknown and to notice how they might subconsciously exclude themselves from peer connection. By understanding how trauma hijacked their developmental years, survivors can begin to teach their nervous system that rest is not a danger, but rather a vital restoration process to get more of their life back. Keywords: childhood trauma, hypervigilance, growing up too fast, inner child work, emotional neglect, emotionally immature parents, nervous system, downtime anxiety, peer relationships, grief work, trauma recovery, healing childhood wounds. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Are You Sure They're Safe?
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, dives into the complex world of intuition and safety: how childhood trauma can break our internal radar and how to tell the difference between a safe person and an unsafe one. He introduces a framework centered on Authenticity , moving beyond simple checklists of red flags to focus on the gut-level ick that signals when a person’s public performance doesn't match their private motives. The episode begins with a nuanced workplace hypothetical: a new coworker who is "extra"—personable and welcoming, yet intense and slightly "performative." Patrick uses this scenario to illustrate how trauma survivors often struggle with the "was it me or was it them?" dilemma, feeling triggered by the very people who claim to be helpful. Listeners will learn: The Broken Radar System: Why trauma symptoms like shame, self-doubt, and attachment wounds act like high-CPU applications, slowing down and overriding your natural intuition. The "Car Without a Driver" Metaphor: How unsafe people often operate unconsciously, lacking the self-awareness to steer their own triggers and accountability. The Authenticity Framework: A deep dive into the three main signs of inauthenticity: moving too fast to bond, hiding motives/feelings, and an intense or provocative relational style. The Power of the "Ick": Why reconnecting with the emotion of disgust is a vital survival tool for those who were taught to ignore their boundaries. Deficit-Based Cues: How low self-worth, fear of abandonment, and naivety can lead survivors to mislabel foes as friends or overlook blatant warnings. Vulnerability vs. Performance: The difference between a truly authentic person who can risk disappointing you and a "performative" person who uses niceness to sell a false image. Patrick also provides practical recovery insights, encouraging listeners to stop asking "Are they nice?" and start asking "Are they real?" By understanding how trauma hijacks our "audio preferences" (like the Zoom vs. Music Software analogy), survivors can begin to clear the "CPU" and trust their internal protective systems once again. Keywords: childhood trauma, trauma recovery, intuition, red flags, authenticity, boundaries, attachment wounds, gaslighting, safe people, people pleasing, self-worth, emotional regulation, internal radar. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
When History Repeats: The Golden Child Gets Betrayed
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores a difficult and personal topic: how abusive family dynamics can scale into larger systems, and what happens when legal authority functions like an abusive parent. He introduces a framework he calls the Abusive Parent State , using trauma pattern recognition to connect family systems language to collective trauma. Rather than staying inside the usual home-based roles, Patrick widens the lens to examine how gaslighting, enforcer dynamics, and discard phases can appear at a societal level. The episode begins with a family story from County Kerry, Ireland in 1920, when a home invasion by the Black and Tans changed his family’s lineage and left a long nervous system legacy. From there, he draws parallels to historical and present-day examples, including Hitler’s SA and a current lens on ICE, to illustrate how state-sponsored fear can imprint across generations. Listeners will learn: How legal abuse can replicate the same power dynamics as an abusive household The clinical blueprint of state-sponsored terror and how it targets home-based safety The golden child to scapegoat pipeline and why enforcers are often eventually betrayed How home invasions and forced instability create long-term hypervigilance in families Why trauma is a time traveler and how it shapes parenting and attachment across generations How to maintain humanity and groundedness when the “parent state” becomes the abuser Patrick also discusses recovery tools for holding reality clearly, staying regulated, and resisting the pull to normalize abusive dynamics, whether they come from family or from systems. If you feel activated by the current climate, carry inherited fear, or recognize familiar abuse patterns playing out on a larger scale, this episode offers language, validation, and a way to think about collective trauma without losing sight of healing. Keywords: collective trauma, intergenerational trauma, childhood trauma, state violence, hypervigilance, gaslighting, family systems, abusive parent dynamics, enforcer dynamics, scapegoating, trauma patterns, trauma recovery Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
My Highschool Bully
In this episode, Patrick, explores why memories of school bullies can still feel visceral years later, even after you have done a lot of healing work. Using a poll with over 2,000 participants, Patrick breaks down the different ways bullying can stick in the nervous system, from occasional intense flashbacks to lingering resentment and revenge fantasies. Rather than treating bullying as a standalone issue, Patrick connects it to childhood trauma and family systems. He explains how bullies often target vulnerability, how being disconnected at home can amplify what happens at school, and why many survivors cannot fully process bullying until they also confront the bully at home or the caregivers who minimized it, blamed them, or failed to protect them. A major turning point in the episode comes from Patrick’s own story: years after high school, he looks up a bully online and finds a single comment that reframes the entire relationship... Listeners will learn: What the data says about bullying and adulthood Why bullying can feel personal when home life already attacked your worth How the bully at school sometimes mirrors the emotional climate at home How a single piece of context can shift long-held pain and meaning What real compassion looks like after healthy processing Patrick also discusses recovery themes like validating your younger self, noticing “trauma detective” dynamics where bullies spot fear and disconnection, and how reclaiming your own humanity makes it easier to see humanity in others without excusing harm. If you still think about a bully once in a while and the feelings hit hard, this episode offers a grounded way to understand why, and a path toward loosening what is still stuck. Keywords: school bullying, childhood trauma, emotional flashbacks, resentment, revenge fantasies, family systems, emotional neglect, unsafe parents, hypervigilance, self-worth, healing, compassion Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
The Feeling of Being “In Trouble”
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores the baseline feeling of being “in trouble”, that constant sense that someone is mad at you, you did something wrong, or you are about to be shamed. He breaks down why this internal alarm is so common in childhood trauma and how it can follow people into adulthood through imposter syndrome, anxiety dreams, and chronic hypervigilance. Rather than treating it like a personality flaw, Patrick connects the “in trouble” feeling to shame-based family systems, especially homes with emotionally immature or abusive caregivers, scapegoating, addiction, unpredictable rules, and punishment instead of repair. He reframes it as an emotional flashback where the body signals, “It’s happening again,” even when the present moment is safe. Listeners will learn: Why you might feel “in trouble” even when nothing is wrong How toxic shame damages self-trust and relationships Why relaxing can feel unsafe after growing up with chronic blame How survival responses like fawning, shutdown, fight, and parentification develop How to tell the difference between present-day accountability and old conditioning Journal prompts to trace where this started and “talk back” to the internalized abusive voice Patrick also shares recovery tools like inner child work, repairing distorted perception, boundary development, and practicing self-protection in present-day triggers, such as conflict, tense emails, and setting preferences. If you grew up feeling like a burden, the “bad kid,” or like one misstep could ruin everything, this episode offers language, validation, and a path toward reclaiming safety and self-trust. Keywords: childhood trauma, toxic shame, feeling in trouble, emotional flashbacks, hypervigilance, emotionally immature parents, scapegoating, parentification, fawning, imposter syndrome, inner child work, trauma recovery Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Ireland—Where Flashbacks Pass Away
In this episode, Patrick shares a personal story about what it can look like when long-held trauma responses begin to loosen after years of recovery work and how flashbacks can shift into quieter moments of recognition instead of distress. Rather than focusing on symptoms alone, Patrick connects the body-level experience of trauma anniversaries, shame attacks, and emotional flashbacks to the family system that created them, including emotionally immature parenting, addiction, domestic violence, and poor boundaries. Using a trip through Ireland as the backdrop, Patrick reflects on returning to the Ring of Kerry and Dingle Peninsula decades after a childhood visit with a narcissistic, alcoholic father and noticing a body memory that arrives without the old shame and fear. He contrasts that earlier experience with traveling alongside his son, describing what it means to feel detached from a parent’s legacy and present in your own life. Important Takeaways for the Listener: How trauma anniversaries can show up as subtle body memories, and how they can change after sustained healing work Why kids often feel like accomplices to adult dysfunction, and how that fuels shame and distorted self-perception How emotionally immature caregivers and chaotic family systems shape attachment, safety, and identity What it means to break cycles with or without becoming a parent, and how to separate yourself from a family legacy Why overwhelm in the current climate can activate old survival states, and how to orient back to the present How reflective tools, including a toxic family style assessment he references, can help name what the ACE framework may miss about family dynamics Patrick also discusses recovery themes like inner child work, repairing distorted perception, reducing shame-based identity, and building a life where you no longer represent your parents’ choices. If you carry a sense of inherited shame, feel easily activated by the world, or are noticing your triggers changing as you heal, this episode offers a grounded example of what progress can feel like over time. Keywords: childhood trauma, emotional flashbacks, body memories, shame attacks, trauma anniversaries, emotionally immature parents, narcissistic parent, addiction in families, intergenerational trauma, breaking cycles, inner child work, recovery Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Was This Your Family? (9 Oddly Specific Family Issues)
In this episode, Patrick Teahan, MSW, explores nine rarely named but deeply damaging family dynamics that quietly shape childhood trauma and follow people into adulthood. Rather than focusing on symptoms alone, Patrick breaks down the dysfunctional family systems behind them—the unspoken rules, emotional roles, and survival patterns that distort self-worth, boundaries, and relationships. As a follow-up to 11 Oddly Specific Childhood Trauma Issues , this episode examines how growing up in emotionally immature or unsafe families affects perception, identity, and connection. From households where feelings are ignored but secretly run everything, to families that bond through complaining instead of change, Patrick explains how these patterns condition children to self-betray, overfunction, or disappear. Listeners will learn: What happens when children grow up without mutually satisfying parental relationships How scapegoating, gaslighting, and chronic blame damage self-trust Why some families resist growth and punish success The emotional cost of always being “the responsible one” How gender roles and hierarchy reinforce dysfunction Why survivors are often told to “be the better person” with abusive relatives Patrick also discusses recovery tools, including inner child work, repairing distorted perception, boundary development, and learning to step out of dysfunctional family roles. If you grew up feeling unseen, unsafe, or emotionally responsible for others, this episode offers language, validation, and a clearer path toward healing. Keywords: childhood trauma, toxic family systems, emotionally immature parents, CPTSD, family dysfunction, emotional neglect, scapegoating, parentification, trauma recovery, boundaries, inner child healing Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
5 Types of Lost Childhood Personalities
This episode explores how childhood trauma and emotionally unsafe parenting can cause us to lose touch with our original personality, the self we were born with before survival, compliance, and shame took over. Through personal stories and clinical insight, Patrick explains how emotionally immature or abusive parents distort a child’s sense of self by mislabeling innate traits as problems. Poor emotional mirroring, lack of goodness of fit, and pressure to comply can force a child’s spark underground, leading trauma responses to be mistaken for personality well into adulthood. Learn how many survivors grow up feeling disconnected from who they really are, surprised by positive feedback, or unsure whether their behaviors reflect their true self or trauma adaptations, and how to begin reclaiming what was lost. Topics include: How childhood trauma suppresses innate personality The impact of emotional abuse, misattunement, and forced compliance Why trauma responses often replace a true sense of self The five core childhood personality types and how they’re shaped by family dynamics How to begin reconnecting with your authentic identity through trauma healing If you grew up feeling like the difficult child, the odd duck, or the misunderstood one, this episode offers clarity, validation, and a path back to yourself. Keywords: childhood trauma, lost sense of self, emotionally immature parents, trauma recovery, inner child healing, emotional abuse, identity development, CPTSD, family of origin trauma Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Why Are Victims Expected to Do All the Work?
This episode tells the story of Thomas, a survivor who went no contact with his abusive father after a public meltdown at his wedding, and how the world around him quietly blames him for the relationship he didn’t break. From well-meaning coworkers saying “all families have stuff,” to relatives insisting “you’ll have to let it go,” Patrick explores why the burden to forgive and reconnect so often falls on the person who was hurt, not the person who caused the harm. Learn how survivors like Thomas are pressured to “be the bigger person,” while abusers avoid accountability, and how to stop carrying that emotional labor yourself. Topics include: Why abusive parents are rarely held accountable How relatives and in-laws minimize harm to “keep the peace” The shame, guilt, and invisibility survivors feel when going no contact The hidden motives behind advice like “just forgive” How to flip the script and protect your peace If you’ve ever been told to reconcile with someone who never took responsibility for the pain they caused, this episode offers validation, and a new way forward. Keywords: family estrangement, toxic parents, no contact healing, emotional abuse recovery, accountability, narcissistic parent, trauma recovery, boundaries, forgiveness pressure, inner child healing Nearly 16M kids have lost grocery benefits. Help them get the meals they need! Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Toxic Mothers and the Impact on Daughters
This episode explores how growing up with a toxic or emotionally unavailable mother can shape a daughter’s sense of worth, identity, and boundaries, and how to finally break free. Rather than focusing on blame, Patrick unpacks the lasting emotional damage that daughters carry into adulthood and the path toward self-trust and emotional independence. Learn why patterns like people-pleasing, guilt, and over-responsibility aren’t flaws, they’re survival strategies that once kept you safe. Through stories, insights, and tools, Patrick guides you toward seeing your story with compassion and clarity. Topics include: How toxic maternal behavior damages self-perception The “good daughter” role and its emotional consequences Guilt, shame, and the confusion between love and obligation Reparenting yourself and building healthy emotional boundaries Reclaiming confidence and connection without losing yourself You’ll leave this episode with practical tools to stop carrying emotional responsibility for others, repair your self-image, and begin building the safety your mother couldn’t provide. Keywords: toxic mother, mother-daughter trauma, emotional abuse, inner child healing, childhood trauma recovery, boundaries, reparenting, self-worth repair, codependency, healing tools, family roles, emotional neglect Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Breaking Free From a Narcissistic Parent
This episode explores how growing up with a narcissistic or emotionally immature parent can distort your perception of yourself, others, and your worth, and how to reclaim it. Instead of fixating on the parent, we look at the damage that lingers and the path to undo it. Learn why triggers around work, relationships, and self-doubt aren’t personality flaws—they're leftover survival responses from childhood. Patrick shares vulnerable personal stories about being cast as “the dumb one” and how those old narratives showed up in adulthood, even during success. Topics include: How narcissistic parents damage a child’s perception The impact on self-worth, identity, and intimacy Hypervigilance, projection, and feeling “in trouble” for existing Three powerful recovery tools: Protecting your inner child Writing a truth statement Giving back what was never yours to carry You’ll walk away with practical exercises to shift perception, stop living in fear, and reclaim a sense of self that was always yours. ----------------------------- Workbook Chapters 1 — How to Get Your Inner Adult in Place … 12 2 — The Built-In Forgetter (Codependency) … 27 3 — Honoring Our Trauma Responses & Coping Strategies … 38 4 — Overcoming Magical Thinking … 51 5 — The Feeling of Being "In Trouble"… 63 6 — How to Stop Anticipating Criticism … 74 7 — Childhood Trauma & Physical Energy Issues … 84 8 — Depression Related to Childhood Trauma … 97 9 — Processing Childhood Emotional Neglect (The Things That Didn’t Happen)… 107 10 - Processing Childhood Enmeshment with an Emotionally Immature Parent …118 11 - Processing Childhood Trauma-Related Grief … 131 12 - Processing Guilt: Recognizing the Family History Before Low or No Contact … 143 13 - How to Recover from a Narcissistic Parent … 153 Journal Prompts Journal Prompt #1: How did self-worth get twisted? How did your narcissistic parent create damage around your self-worth and how you perceive yourself? Write a list of ten experiences about lost self-worth due to that parent. Examples That Christmas when my mother made me stand up in front of the entire extended family while she berated me about why I didn’t get any gifts. My father would take any achievement I had and one-up me. I gave up on having self-worth because he was the focus. Journal Prompt #2: Who did they say you are? Write several paragraphs about your struggle with a healthy sense of self and how the narcissistic parent contributed to a poor sense of self. Who did your parents say you were, either through protection, neglect, or supply? Example I’ve always guessed at what I like or who I am. My mother had these twisted ideas, or fantasies, that I was going to become an entrepreneur and live a fabulous life in support of her. Did I want that? What even is that? What I know now is if she had a child who was a rich genius, she could have supply and validation—she could tell her friends she raised an entrepreneur. Of course I don’t know who I am. Access the workbook here Patrickteahan.com/workbook Keywords: narcissistic parent recovery, childhood trauma, perception wounds, inner child healing, self-worth repair, intimacy triggers, emotional abuse healing, trauma recovery tools Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
4 Tools to Fix Triggers
This episode dives into the ways childhood trauma shows up in daily triggers—and how to break free from them faster. Learn how your past shapes present reactions and discover practical tools to release the emotional charge that keeps you stuck. Topics include: Understanding how triggers connect past and present Four actionable tools for regulating emotional triggers Healing practices for body and mind Reclaiming your time, energy, and creativity from trauma Join us for an empowering conversation on building resilience, calming your nervous system, and supporting your inner child. Keywords: Childhood trauma, emotional triggers, healing tools, inner child work, trauma recovery, nervous system regulation Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Answering Your Questions! - Social Challenges
This episode explores the ways childhood trauma survivors often feel left out in friendships and social situations, and how those early family patterns show up in adult connections. Topics include: Struggling to “jump in” during conversations Starting friendships but pulling away quickly Feeling “too much” or too intense for others How family modeling shapes social shame Inner child work and dialoguing prompts for healing Join us for an honest, compassionate conversation on finding belonging and becoming more comfortable in your own skin. Keywords: childhood trauma, social anxiety, inner child healing, friendships, boundaries, CPTSD, feeling excluded, self-worth. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Stop Fawning with Dr. Ingrid Clayton
In this episode, Patrick sits down with Dr. Ingrid Clayton to unpack fawning, the often-missed, deeply relational trauma response: why “people-pleasing” isn’t what it seems, how power dynamics shape it, and first steps toward taking up space—without turning into someone you’re not. Order your copy of Fawning: Why the Need to Please Makes Us Lose Ourselves—and How to Find Our Way Back today! ORDER HERE Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
Healing From Toxic Mothers
This episode explores in-depth how emotionally immature or abusive mothers impact their sons long into adulthood. Keep an eye out for two more parts of this series! Topics include: Feeling triggered by other women - imaginary or real Different types of toxic mothers Replicating patterns from our childhood trauma Tips for healing and building healthy relationships Join us for an insightful conversation on healing and finding emotional balance. Keywords: Childhood trauma, toxic mother, relationships, healing, self-worth. Join the Healing Community! Join the Monthly Healing Community Membership
