Still Figuring It Out

Sometimes you have to go through a lot of changes in a small timeframe to truly test your mental strength. That’s what I did in my 23rd year. How’d I fair? Listen to find out.

What do you get when you mix going to clubs, graduating college, and diving headfirst into your first serious relationship?

*TW: Mentions of sexual assault* Oh 21, I hope you sleep better at night now.

Ahh 20, the year I declared my major, met Taylor swift and road-tripped to Nashville. But also the year I felt the weight of immense pressure to have it all figured out. Join me in finding out if I ever did.

Let’s take it back to 19, aka my golden birthday, my golden year. I thought I had it all figured out, but as you’ll hear I was just a teen playing dress up as an adult.

The summer ‘23 vibe is pools not beach, stay safe ❤️

Did you miss me? Let's catch up, grab some wine and listen in on my six-month recap of the good, the bad, and everything in between. Oh, and welcome to season 3.

TW: Mentions of murder, sexual assault, and cannibalism. Listener discretion is advised. Who really killed JonBenét Ramsey? Is the new suspect that was arrested the killer in the Idaho stabbings? Why do we continue glorifying serial killers such as Ted Bundy and Jeffrey Dahmer when we should be spotlighting the victims whose lives were cut short? Help us navigate these questions as we take you through this episode with our theories and opinions that you may or may not like.

I shouldn't be here right now, I shouldn't even be writing this to you all right now. But I've been shown throughout all the bad this year has given me that I can accept outstretched arms with my own stuck to my sides. Thank you for continuing to listen to the words that come out of my mouth that I courageously put out here. There will be more to come, I can promise you that.

TW: mentions of eating disorders, suicide, mental illness, and sexual assault. Listener distractions is advised. What better way to get deep and emotional than with some personal questions and drinking wine while already being drunk. I’m back once again with my friend and ex coworker Cintia where we sit in my living room, eat some sushi and finish off another bottle. These were fun and eye opening to answer so thank you for following along, it never not goes appreciated.

Because if the person your dating can’t do dishes or laundry it’s time to pack it up. I’m back again with my good friend Cintia as we comb through our past relationships and situationships the only way we can stomach…with a full glass of wine.

Would you believe it, I finally have a guest on here. And just like the beginning of this episode, it's nothing short of crazy. We get into how we became friends, our many adventures involving bottomless mimosas and creating a human wall to pee at the club, and the reason for this title. Because just like this podcast, we're all still figuring it out.

If there's one thing that's been there for me this year, it's books. Through my hospital stay, long work days, solo vacation, outpatient program, and move, there wasn't a time my bag didn't have a novel waiting to be opened. So, I thought I'd share with you all the (40) books I read this year and tell you which are worth it and which can be left on the shelf.

TW: mentions of weight and depression in episode, listener discretion advised. Because sometimes you need to sit on your living room floor and spill your thoughts out into your microphone for more than just your cat to hear. I talk about feeling lost in my twenties, the advice I would give myself starting my twenties, and dealing with some body image issues and self-confidence. I can't wait to hear this back in a year and give that girl the hug I can't give myself right now and tell her it's okay not to be okay. I hope this helps anyone who feels the same way, that's all I've ever set out to do.

13 years ago in 9th-grade homeroom, I met my best friend, Elliot, who made those 4 years better. Then at college orientation with just a glance he met his now husband and my other close friend, Joe, who would be the one to get me through college. On Christmas Day of 2020, my best friend proposed and a year after that I'd be opening a box asking to be his best woman at their wedding. It's a title I take seriously, so I had to dedicate a whole episode to them while trying to figure out my speech. Because how am I supposed to fit all these years into a short speech? Impossible. So, here's to you two. Who made finding their soulmate so easy. May we all be so lucky.

hi guys, I know it's been another long time since we last talked. But I want you to know how thankful I am for you. One Friday night, this episode was done on a whim after a dinner of soup and bread. I came into my office in my new apartment and told you about my summer of healing and how I've been doing with my mental and physical health. How being in an out patient program for my depression saved my life and made me realize how toxic Instagram really is. How you can accept new friendships with shaky hands and Sunday brunches. How you can paddleboard with MS and not fall off in the lake. How a small feline's purr can melt your heart in the morning and evening. How you can have really good days and really bad days. How even through everything you've been through, you still find a reason somewhere in you to keep going. This was scary to come back and do so thank you for allowing my words to be the soundtrack you listen to.

hi, I know it's been a bit. Just know I love you and you taking the time to listen to any part of this episode means more to me than you can ever imagine. I'll see you again as soon as I can. p.s. being honest is powerful

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TW: Mentions of suicide and sexual assault in this episode. If this episode is all over the place, then I'm not sorry. Because sometimes that's how life and especially love can be. And that's what I talk about in this episode. We go into the difference between saying the word "love," versus feeling it and I let you in on a little confession. What that is you may ask? Well, listen and you'll find out.

Are you surprised I actually lived up to my promise for a new episode this week? Don't worry, unlike that guy, I keep my promises. In this episode, we talk about a lot of things ranging from new shows I've been watching to a new segment called rate my mental health for the week. I go into the idea of learning to appreciate the simpler things in life and how the person I am now is a lot better for me than the person I was living in and for last year. I hope you can take something from this ramble of a chat and I will see you all again next week, that's right you heard that.