Published by Dr. Zubin Damania
Interviews and live rants on healthcare, depolarizing our divided society, and the non-dual nature of reality. Hosted by UCSF/Stanford-trained physician Dr. Zubin Damania (AKA ZDoggMD).
Listen on Apple PodcastsA live Q+A wandering through our Sunday zoom meeting with the awakening group, to Jesus Christ Superstar, to the death of "ZDoggMD" as an identity, through moral injury, openness as the prerequisite for everything, why spirituality is a beautiful farce, and what it's like when worry about the future just stops sticking. Health 4.0 son! Contact me, watch all the videos, and join the Supporter Tribe for future zoom meetings here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
I tell ya, there's something about these ephemeral TikTok live conversations that just gets this Zubin character all lit up 🔥 Here's a recording just for y'all who listen to the podcast (these live shows normally go POOF immediately after airing on TikTok). As always, you can hit me up hello at zdoggmd.com, and check out all the things here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
A two-hour conversation with a fellow "Z" that's for no one and goes exactly nowhere. Perfect! 😅 We talk about addiction as hole-filling, and the hole that can never be filled; the seeking energy and what it actually wants; the dying process of identity deconstructing in reverse order; why the sense of a separate self is not a thought but an embodied energetic misunderstanding; why there's no practice because the person can't get rid of itself; what's actually longed for (not what the mind thinks); hopelessness as freedom... the real kind; the solidity trap and why making things real is the suffering; the sense of separation as the literal root of all suffering; what happens when you die; compassion as simply this communication; the end of the comparing mind; all the struggle of me for nothing; patterns falling away spontaneously; grief and loss and awe; and liberation as the end of the need for liberation. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
No subject, no object, just phenomena arising. From my TikTok live on consciousness, hope, meaning, the freefall of no belief, and what it's like when the self-critical voice quietly stops showing up. Plus: row your boat. Contact form, more videos, and membership options here. https://lnk.bio/zdoggmd Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
One phone call with cardiologist and recovering alcoholic Rishi Menon and BOOM: we're instant Stepbrothers 😂 We dive into failing med school, 20 years of proving worthiness, recovery, suicidal ideation, burnout, the Enneagram as software, body changes after letting go, and why practice probably isn't causative but shows up anyway. Full video here. Click here for website, contact form, links to all the things, and more! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
There's really only two questions. Exploring the first can lead to a more comfy prison cell, and REALIZING the second shows there never was a prison cell at all. Both are ABSOLUTELY PERFECT. Live conversation from the Z-Shed! Click here for website, contact form, links to all the things, and more! Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
"You" can never really trust this moment. And yet THIS, here, now, IS pure trust itself. A Friday Zen Live on the unconditional acceptance of what is, why the separate self can never surrender into this, the second arrow that never landed, and an old biker dude who took the longest dump in trail bathroom history 💩 Contact form, videos, links, and all the things here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
What goes up must come down, and for the spiritual seeker, that pendulation is one of the most specific and painful flavors of suffering there is. This Friday Zen LIVE from YouTube explores why the ups and downs are the same no-thing, what natural compassion looks like when you never practiced or play-acted it, Douglas Harding's headless way, and much more. Contact form, videos, links, and all the things here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
My baby is now at senior prom, I got a splitting headache, and somehow this is the perfect moment to talk about no-thing-ness. A Friday Zen YouTube live (4/24/26) on retreats, the seeking apparatus burning out, no-thingness appearing as everything, and why the mind is a real a-hole 🕳️ Contact form, videos, links, and all the things here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Nina chose Vassar — and that news kicks off a wide-ranging Monday Zen live that covers a lot of ground. We start with the "spiritual journey" in full: from burning out as a doctor, to a spontaneous awakening in Las Vegas, to years of meditation, retreats, shadow work, and psychedelics, all of it eventually collapsing into the simple recognition that it was always just this. Along the way: why lying becomes nearly impossible when there's nothing left to protect, what every psychedelic from 5-MeO-DMT to Salvia Divinorum pointed at (spoiler: this), the honest question of whether awakening is liberation or just a very specific kind of dissociation, monogamy and marriage as story, why spiritual authority dissolves completely at some point, and how the whole journey lands you right back where you started ...except the circle never quite closes. Video show archive, audio podcasts, music parodies, Supporter Tribe membership options, merch, social media, and email contact form: https://lnk.bio/zdoggmd Support us with a 1-time donation and get a personal email response from me: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/zdoggmd More about Dr. Z: https://zdoggmd.com/about-z/ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Just got back from spring break touring colleges with my oldest ZPupp (yeah, wasn't she just a frickin' BABY yesterday?). Rochester, Vassar, and NYU. This episode is the full debrief...the steel cut oats, the Hogwarts campus, the NYU dean who told an auditorium full of accepted students and families that it's depressing to be poor, and what all of it reveals about ambition, projection, and just letting life life itself since the script is already written, bruh. Full video, originally LIVE on YouTube, here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
From BTS documentaries to grieving your own college experience through your kid's eyes, life keeps surfacing exactly what needs to be seen. An April Fools live conversation that somehow landed on death, freedom, and the scrote-sichord 🤭 Topics: The Dr. Oz April Fools Prank — A Fond Memory BTS Documentary: Schmos, Celebrities, and the Cosmic Joke "Everything Seems Fine and Yet" — What's Been Coming Up Nina's College Stuff What I Actually Felt at 18 — Grieving the College Experience UC Berkeley: The Real Story Professor Fristrom and the Lab That Saved Me It's Never About Someone Else — It's Always About You Era Ending or Projection? The Party Degree I Never Got to Have Everything You Ever Learned Is Happening Now The 529 Account Question and the Opportunity Cost of College What If You Just Invested the Tuition Money Instead? Waking Up, Growing Up, Showing Up — Ken Wilber and the Story Models All Beliefs Are Provisional — Go Down the Rabbit Hole, Then Let Go The FIRE Movement and the Trap of Seeking Freedom Spiritual Bypassing: You Can't Actually Do It What's Your Biggest Fixation That's Left? The Trap of "Someday I'll Be Free" What Happens When You Die? Kids and the Double Arrow of Suffering Stage Models of Awakening — Useful Until They're Not How Long Do You Meditate? Zero. Everything Is a Meditation. A Medical School Musical Interlude ADHD, Psychiatric Labels, and Just Zubining Is Awakening Even Desirable? Awakening as Death Followed Immediately by Hilarity From the Outside It Looks Like Existential Crisis — And That's Exactly Right Is "We" Closer to Truth Than "I"? Religious Awakening vs. Non-Dual Awakening — Same Flavor, Different Tradition "How Is This Here the Same as This There?" Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
This is just DUMB SIMPLE...so much so that the mind that always wants to know, always wants to make sense, simply won't believe it. From 3am despair during college admissions season to spontaneous tears on the leg press, life keeps showing up as exactly what it is. Original YouTube live video here. College admissions process and Nina's New York school visits Waking up at 3am — absorbing stress and feeling it fully Why meditation techniques eventually stop arising on their own Non-dumbality: reality as too simple and ordinary for any concept to touch The Four Noble Truths and the Eightfold Path — why the Buddha gave instructions at all The "fake it till you make it" paradox of spiritual practice Crying at the gym and spontaneous emotional release Who or what is choosing what happens next? The tree of belief metaphor — falling through branches on the way down Nothing is hidden: object permanence as a functional lie Zen stink and the spiritual ego that thinks it woke up What awakening actually means (and why the story collapses) Angelo, gratitude, and why spiritual content no longer lands Ram Dass on other people's awakening being none of your business Gratitude roll call to those who "taught" me What's actually being transmitted in these live shows Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Nothing arrives. Nothing persists. And you were never behind. Monday Zen Live, original YouTube conversation here. 0:00 Welcome & The Imaginarium — Why the World Is a Story 1:38 Krishnamurti's "Filthy Word" and Taking the Story Sincerely 4:05 When the Whole Thing Just Drops 6:13 Absolute Freefall — This Is Pure Unadulterated Chaos 7:49 Nothing Ever Arrives Before It's Gone 9:18 Descartes Got It Almost Right — But Not Quite 11:43 Staring at a Blue Sky: The Instability of Appearance 13:02 Emptiness Isn't Magical 14:43 Is This Too Extreme a Negation? 16:05 Love Is Real — But Not How You Think 18:10 Awareness Isn't Fundamental — A Bone to Pick 20:05 Dogs Don't Live in the Imaginarium 22:06 You Don't Have to Believe Me — Let Go of Belief Entirely 23:24 Whatever Is Arising Right Now? That's It. 25:27 Why Unknowing Gets Rejected — By Society and the Ego 27:13 Always Exactly Where We Need to Be 27:38 The 5-MeO-DMT Realization: Nowhere to Go, Nothing to Seek 29:04 Perfect Days — A Film About Total Liberation 29:36 When the Dream Character Wakes Up (and Gets a Spiritual Ego) 34:33 Appearance Noticing Itself as Appearance 35:52 Isness, Thusness, Beingness — Words Pointing at Nothing 44:43 Why Zubin Blocked All Spiritual Content 47:38 How AI Pointed Back to the Unknowable 49:34 The Spiritual Entertainment Industrial Complex 52:06 Does Zubin Want More Followers? 54:22 Why He Stopped Practicing Medicine 1:04:08 Spiritual Apologism and the Self-Deception of Influence 1:03:00 Mark and Sharon at Chemo — What Live Is Really For 1:10:13 When You Cringe at Your Own Words (And When You Don't) 1:12:09 Wrap-Up & Peace Out Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Why every concept, belief, and story falls utterly short of what's actually HERE. From YouTube LIVE. 0:00 Welcome & The Imaginarium We Live In 0:48 No Thought or Belief Can Touch What Is 2:24 The 180° Inversion: Concepts Are the Abstraction 5:50 How the Separate Self Generates Suffering 13:02 Did the Past Actually Happen? 15:00 Who Designed the Dance? On Illusion and Creation 18:10 Is There Even a Witness? Appearance Without a Knower 21:03 Why Reality Is Boring (and That's the Point) 24:48 The Bahiya Sutta: Simply the Seen 26:10 Music, Tones, and What Sound Is Actually Showing You 28:05 Is There a Path to Awakening? 31:32 Is Enlightenment a Stable State? 33:58 Privilege, Poverty, and Who Gets to Wake Up 35:42 Dreams, Sleep, and the Continuity of Appearance 38:48 What If Someone Hates Life? 43:48 Am I a nihilist?? 45:37 Wrap-Up & Signing Off Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
What happens when the seeking stops? We explore the paradox of the spiritual path, why role models don't make sense anymore, and how life just keeps life-ing — perfectly, with nobody doing it. A Monday live conversation on YouTube about nothing and everything. https://lnk.bio/zdoggmd for all the things. 0:00 Introduction: Post-Daylight Savings Monday 1:05 Why Time Changes Mess With Our Circadian Rhythms 4:28 Is There Meaning in Names? 5:24 Spirituality as Just Another Story 7:17 This Is Not a Popular Message 8:02 When Interest in TED Talks and Podcasts Dies 11:07 YouTube Is Actually Great (When You Stop Caring) 11:39 What Happens After Death? 13:14 You Can't Learn This — The Paradox of Seeking 17:03 Speaking to People Where They Are 19:25 Radical Honesty: There's Nothing to Do 21:01 There's No Continuity — Only Memory 23:05 Julia, the Rug Is Going to Be Pulled Out 24:04 How Do You Relate to Dream Characters? You Don't. 27:02 Presence Is Just Radical Acceptance 29:22 My Wife's Plant Obsession (House Tour Moment) 30:00 The Tragic Florida Prank Story 35:01 Humans Aren't Terrible or Good — Just This 36:17 Life Can Get Better (Paradoxically) 37:14 If People Had to Slaughter Their Own Animals 39:01 Revisiting the Past as Part of Realization 42:01 Dating Ads During the Live Stream? 43:00 Nothing Happens Outside What's Immediately Apparent 44:04 The Anus Meditation (Yes, Really) 45:00 Guilt About World Events 46:46 Does Seeking Energy Come Back? 50:02 Subjectification and the Fluxy State 51:04 Am I in the Epstein Files? 57:52 Better or Worse Than Seven Years Ago? 59:02 Getting Pulled Back Into the Story 1:00:22 Country Joe McDonald Has Passed 1:02:02 AMAs and the Dissolution of Questions 1:03:05 Should I Do a Daily Practice? 1:06:02 Why Would You Want to Be on a Podcast? 1:08:50 Would I Go on Joe Rogan? Nah. 1:10:50 Daniel Schmachtenberger 1:14:12 Closing: The Paradox of Talking to 100 People Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Another fun live conversation about the (un)reality of "me." YouTube video is here. All the links are here. 0:00 Introduction: The "Me" Will Never Be Enough 3:01 What Is the "Me"? The Illusion of the Separate Self 5:05 The Seeking Energy: Why We Never Feel Whole 7:24 Midlife Crisis and Spiritual Seeking as More of the Same 9:57 The Unsatisfaction Machine: Worthiness and Unworthiness 11:46 Hope and Hopelessness: The Self in Time 13:22 Pain vs. Suffering: What's the Difference? 15:08 The Spiritual Circus: Why Seeking Doesn't Work 17:03 Ego Extinction and Meditation: The Trap of Trying 19:26 The Paradox: Awakening Happened, Then the "Me" Claimed It 22:00 Surrender Is Impossible for the Self 23:00 Jim Newman and Radical Non-Duality 25:04 What Is Belief? The Self Trying to Know 27:05 Is Science Truth? Dreams Within Dreams 29:05 Real and Unreal: The Bear Chasing You 31:01 Nothing Is Wrong: Even Resistance Is This 33:05 It's Radically Simple 35:07 The Dream Logic Paradox: Why Teachers Say "Nothing to Do" 38:14 Your Journey Is Just an Appearance 39:48 There Is No Experience, Only Appearance 42:02 Questions That Stop Making Sense 44:09 This Is Not a Popular Message 45:58 What a Relief: When the "Me" Is Seen as Futile 48:36 Grief and Loss: The Emotional Process of Letting Go 51:06 Being Yourself: What Disney Actually Meant 53:01 Full Compassion Without Detachment 54:06 Negative Emotions: Felt Fully, Then Gone 57:00 Progressive Path vs. Radical Pathlessness 59:04 Awareness? I Can't Find It 1:01:31 Closing: The Ordinary and Extraordinary Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Spiritual "influencers" may just be the Final Bosses in the game of delusion 🤮 Watch the YouTube video here. https://lnk.bio/zdoggmd for all the things. 00:00 - Introduction: Live Comments Make It Wondrous 01:46 - BAFTA Tourette's Incident and Nobody Wins 02:41 - Spiritual Influencers Are the Worst 06:14 - F**k all the gurus 09:05 - "Spirituality" isn't something I wanna talk about anymore 11:20 - The Deep Secret: Just What's Appearing 12:06 - Cipher in the Matrix: Wanting to Go Back In 15:01 - Coming All the Way Back to Sleep (Zero Fucks Given) 17:33 - The Seeking Stops Naturally (You Can't Make It Stop) 19:45 - Dentist Story: Not Witnessing, Just Everything Everything-ing 24:24 - Retreats, Poetry Rounds, and Narcissistic Bullshit 29:34 - Turning the Dharma Wheel: I Don't Know What That Means 32:04 - Buddhism's No-Self Gets Distorted Into Attainment 35:00 - Why Be Silent? It's Here in the Talking Too 37:13 - Ashley Selfie Moment: Breaking Retreat Rules 40:05 - Another's Experience Isn't Your Experience (Don't Replicate) 43:35 - Closing: Power Corrupts, Pure Luck of Conditioning Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Zero f***s given in this Facebook LIVE episode 🤭, we explore time, growth as illusion, spiritual mansplaining, why there isn't even consciousness, why nothing cannot stay nothing, the 10 Fetters Buddhist model from separate self to liberation, and more! Kevin Shanilec's interpretation and guide to the Fetters is here. Video archive, audio podcast, music, Supporter Tribe membership, email & more. Support us with a 1-time donation. 00:00 - Introduction: Zero Fucks Given, Social Security Disappointment 01:53 - Time as Flickering Light on a Timeless Screen 05:16 - How Is This Different Than a Dream? 08:00 - Fix the Fixer by Dissolving It 10:18 - Growth Is an Illusion: Nothing Takes Place 13:28 - Church Without the Priest: Feeling Christ Consciousness 16:32 - Spiritual Mansplaining to My Wife (Then She Woke Up) 24:37 - The Unborn: Everything Is Perfectly Managed 30:10 - Why Is Life Hard? (The Question Makes No Sense) 37:17 - Awareness Obsession: Then I Realized There Isn't Consciousness 43:25 - Nothing Cannot Stay Nothing (Why Appearance Exists) 48:13 - The 10 Fetters: Buddhist Model of Liberation 58:04 - How the Fetters Build Backwards from Delusion 1:06:12 - Total Wellness? The Question Falls Away 1:08:20 - Berkeley Meetup Plans, Jim Newman Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
A beautifully spontaneous Monday Zen LIVE (YouTube video here) that I intended as members-only but accidentally went public—and the accident was perfect orchestration by nothing for no one 🤡 We dive deep into identifying as awareness, exploring why it's a beautiful trap that feels like spacious liberation but is still an experience that comes and goes (disappears under anesthesia), and how Nisargadatta used "rest as I Am" as universal solvent until awareness itself dissolved into the magic space of nothingness. Core teaching: nothing takes place, nothing becomes real—all kinds of stuff occurring but never arriving, never becoming solid. I share a painful 3am dream where dream-self was fully mind-identified, seeking validation and connection, feeling "I will never be okay"—and how waking up allowed full feeling without secondary resistance, showing deep unworthiness conditioning still arising but now without stickiness. We explore accommodating all views without ultimate belief (genocide, shootings, political polarization), trauma integration requiring full acceptance and love, and the 2026 heart opening that's matured into natural service without seeking return. Practical experiments: energetic availability on hiking trails where open-hearted presence makes strangers spontaneously smile and greet you (reproducible N-of-1 trial), eye gazing as intimacy practice that breaks down defenses (harder with intimates where stakes are high), horses reading human micro-expressions better than we read each other, chronic illness healing or arising with awakening (body-mind changes, sensitivity increases), discovering Gospel of Thomas as Christian Zen ("kingdom of God spread upon earth yet men do not see it"), free will question collapsing into nonsense, what is your true nature inquiry ("just keep looking"), rich man/camel/needle as rich with concepts and beliefs, and pain practice at dentist using Bankei's "everything is perfectly managed in the unborn" to dissolve second arrow. See all the things, become a member and more here! 00:00 - Introduction: Fear of a Black Hat and Snowed In America 03:35 - Responding to Reality vs. Created Environment 06:11 - Identifying as Awareness: The Beautiful Trap 10:46 - The Unborn: Nothing Takes Place, Nothing Becomes Real 15:07 - Guided Drop Into Pure Awakeness (Meditation) 18:06 - Dream of Mind Identification and Validation Seeking 24:37 - The Magic Space of Nothingness 30:10 - Genocide, Gaza, and Accommodating All Views 35:41 - Trauma Integration: Feeling It Fully to Release 42:12 - Heart Opening and Being of Service Without Return 48:00 - Energetic Availability: The Hiking Trail Experiment 57:23 - Eye Gazing: Breaking Down Defenses Through Intimacy 1:08:53 - Free Will Question Doesn't Make Sense 1:11:11 - What Is Your True Nature? Just Keep Looking 1:20:43 - Gospel of Thomas: Christian Zen and Kingdom of Heaven 1:25:09 - Pain Practice: Second Arrow and the Unborn Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices