Unashamed Unafraid is a show dedicated to being unashamed about sexual addiction recovery and unafraid of coming unto Christ for healing. Pornography and sexual addiction are not something you are stuck with to manage your whole life. We share real stories of recovery, the best resources, information from experts, and answer anonymous questions with those who know. All to help you on the path of being 100% healed from pornography and sexual addiction.
In this episode, James, Sam, Joshua, and Mason sit down for a follow-up on the commitments they made in past episodes (EP 151: Filling the Void of Addiction and EP 193: How Can I Trust God?). They dive open-honestly into what accountability actually looks like in practice—from putting software on phones to actively battling for true brotherhood and moving away from transactional faith to find God directly in the present moment and pain. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 01:29 – James’s update (Revisiting EP 151): Putting Ever Accountable on his phone and achieving over a year of sobriety 03:20 – Healthy accountability vs. using tools to bypass inner healing 05:10 – Proud of the journey: Overcoming the nonchalance and habit of slip-ups after 13 years 06:50 – Sam’s update (EP 151): Overcoming father wounds and learning how to cultivate authentic brotherhood 09:15 – Battling for your brothers: Second chances, slumber parties, and overcoming codependency 11:20 – Joshua’s update (EP 151): Moving past checking religious boxes and learning to trust God with hard conversations 14:30 – Facing the fear of outcomes: Asking God for direction instead of avoiding conflict 15:30 – Mason’s update (Revisiting EP 193): Shifting away from black-and-white thinking and learning to feel pain 16:15 – Redefining recovery: Finding a true relationship with God beyond just quitting pornography 18:15 – Psalm 23: How God prepares a table for us in the presence of difficulty, not just comfort 20:20 – Finding God in the "Now": Moving past prayers focused only on the past or future 22:15 – Closing commitments: Bringing Jesus into the center of brotherhood 23:10 – How to reach out and wrap-up
Mike recounts early exposure to pornography, shame shaped by church messaging, family dynamics, and later learning his biological father’s sexual addiction, then baptizing him before his mission. He describes a canceled temple wedding due to church discipline, continued struggles after marriage, and his shift toward inner work, self-compassion, and a reframe of repentance as metanoia—a fresh view of self, God, and the world—emphasizing wholeness over perfection and connection as the antidote. He recommends “Lean on Me” as his recovery song. He discusses his pivot from branding and graphic design into men’s work, retreats, and breathwork, including co-founding the HEARE Brotherhood. Connect with Mike and get resources here: - www.thelightinus.org - www.hearebros.com - LinkedIn Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 01:11 Making Repair Story 03:05 Meet Mike Allen 03:20 Career Pivot and Purpose 06:32 Family Crest Breakthrough 07:41 First Mens Retreat Leap 10:05 Breathwork Heart Opening 12:22 HearBrotherhood Origin 13:46 Early Porn Exposure 14:39 Family Context and Masculinity 17:28 Shame and Church Messages 20:43 Bio Dad Addiction Reveal 23:11 Baptizing His Dad 23:48 Engagement Secrets 25:02 Recommend Taken Away 27:40 Wedding Canceled 30:28 Marriage Did Not Fix It 31:24 Beyond Twelve Steps 34:51 Metanoia Not Shame 37:30 Opposition And Shadow 40:04 Golden Nuggets 45:06 Find Mike Online 45:47 Lean On Me Finale
Sam, Mason, James, and Austin discuss “firing the old God and hiring the new one.” They define the “old God” as transactional, shaming, distant, perpetually disappointed, and often rooted in childhood, family-of-origin dynamics. The "old God" is a false God that uses reward systems, shame, and sometimes spiritual manipulation. To embrace a new God, you can: 1. Explicitly name false beliefs about God, 2. Identify their impact on relationships, nervous system 3. Reality-test beliefs through scripture and Christ’s character 4. Examine how the belief once protected parts of the self 5. Grieve the loss of the familiar but harmful God-image, and 6. Use rituals (termination letter, speaking aloud, burning notes) to “fire” it. To close, Austin recommends John Eldredge’s One Minute Pause App feature "20 Days to Experience Jesus.” Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 01:19 Meet the Old God 03:27 Where Shame Begins 05:38 Why Fire Him 08:29 Dismantle the Belief 10:45 Grieve the Old Image 12:03 Steps and Rituals 14:52 Hire the New God 16:47 Relational Exposure Practice 17:47 Relapse and Rework 20:30 Resources and Reflections 22:05 Listener Challenge Outro
In this episode of Unashamed, Unafraid, Austin and his wife Becca share how traumatic sexual experiences shaped their views of sexuality, secrecy, and control, and how that led Austin to pornography addiction. Austin describes hiding his compulsive porn use and masturbation due to fear and shame reinforced by religious shame, then later relapsing on his mission, engaging in digital relationships and sexting, and facing a highly shaming disciplinary process, including being labeled a “sexual predator,” disfellowshipped, and shamed by a therapist. Becca recounts being excluded from the process while engaged to be married, not learning full details years into marriage, while also navigating her own trauma and intimacy struggles. Through supportive therapy, Warrior Heart Boot Camp and Heart of a Woman Retreat, vulnerability, and surrendering to God, the two begin healing, rebuilding trust. Austin reaches nearly six months sobriety; they emphasize shared recovery, communication, and “Broken Together” as their song. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:43 Meet Austin and Becca 01:53 Austin's Childhood Sexual Grooming 03:25 Porn Exposure and Control 05:23 Shame Culture and Secrecy 08:02 Becca’s Sexual Abuse 14:10 How Trauma Shaped Sexuality 15:37 Vulnerability and Early Disclosure 19:08 Mission Struggles and iPad Temptation 24:34 Confession and Church Discipline 28:29 Disfellowshipped and Silenced 29:03 Therapy That Shamed 30:41 Becca Left Outside 35:34 Marriage Under Pressure 39:28 A Bishop Who Got It 41:15 Finding Real Therapy 43:44 Warrior Heart Breakthrough 47:26 Healing as a Team 50:55 Rock Bottom to Surrender 56:40 Broken Together
In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Austin shares how keeping a small journal of unfiltered “Dear God” letters for six months became a record of his recovery, transformed his relationship with God, improved communication with his wife, and supported about four months of sobriety. He describes feeling prompted to write “I’m a porn addict in recovery. Ask me anything.” on a poster board and sit at Utah Valley University; after three hours, one student approached, discussed shame and feeling unlovable, and later asked to keep talking. Sam connects this to his own prayer for guidance to expand the platform, then joins Austin in Salt Lake City near City Creek Mall to hold the sign with Austin, where several strangers engage in meaningful conversations. They discuss de-shaming addiction, the most common question they received, and invite listeners to try writing letters to God and email Sam to get involved. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com 01:17 Letters to God 04:00 Sobriety Breakthrough 04:36 Share About Your Porn Addiction 07:30 Finding The One 08:40 Why Vulnerability Matters 11:04 Taking It to Salt Lake 12:06 De-Shaming Porn Addiction 14:50 Hard Questions Real Answers 16:30 Hope Without Pressure
In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Sam and Mason discuss sexual addiction recovery with their shared therapist, Jason Dausses of Accepted Therapy. Sam opens up about longstanding self-judgment rooted in verbally abusive coaches and bosses, and Jason frames healing as both rescuing past wounds and then empowering oneself to live from “zero to ten” through real-time choices, community, and effective communication of needs. They explore why “95% honesty” still leaves a hidden 5% that fuels shame, how to ask others for specific support to create safety, and how boundaries relate to unmet needs and validation-seeking. Jason emphasizes grieving lost time, widening one’s window of tolerance for discomfort, accepting God’s unchanging acceptance even during acting out, and using mindfulness and inner-monologue journaling/parts work to observe thoughts non-judgmentally and reduce shame. Schedule an appointment with Jason Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Raw Check In 01:15 Shame Spiral Confession 02:08 Inner Critic Origins 03:07 Meet The Therapist 05:36 Rescue Then Empower 07:42 The Hidden Five Percent 12:55 Asking For What You Need 15:07 Safety And Self Rescue 16:25 Boundaries Or Validation 18:35 Grief Stage In Recovery 20:46 Grieving Unmet Progress 21:59 Widening Tolerance Window 23:03 God Accepts You Always 24:43 Reintegrating Prayer Life 28:01 Mindfulness After Acting Out 29:47 Inner Monologue Journaling 31:11 Applying Skills Beyond Sex 35:03 No Silver Bullet Recovery 39:03 Living in the Gray 40:33 Wrap Up and Next Steps
In this episode, Sam and James are joined by Dan Ostler to discuss their recent experiences at Warrior Heart Boot Camp. Sam shares a powerful, God-orchestrated moment of healing where confronting shame led to emotional breakthrough and support from God and his brothers. The trio highlight Warrior Heart Boot Camp, the best resource for sexual addiction recovery, and how unplugging in the mountains for three days with Christ fosters healing. They also mention Glory and Heart of a Woman as equivalent programs for women. First time attending Warrior Heart? Use the code UNASHAMED100 for $100 off. WARRIOR HEART - Register for Warrior Heart - Request a scholarship through Unashamed Unafraid Heart of a Woman Retreat - Register for Heart of a Woman - Request a scholarship through Unashamed Unafraid The GLORY Retreat - Register for GLORY - Request a scholarship through Unashamed Unafraid Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 01:25 Why Warrior Heart Matters 01:53 Divine Masculinity Breakdown 04:19 God Orchestrates the Prayer 07:12 Boot Camp Changes Recovery 08:28 Dan’s Boot Camp Journey 09:53 How Dan Invites Men 13:51 Why We Share What Heals 15:35 What Makes It Safe 18:53 Sam’s Prayer and Marriage Struggles 20:34 Call to Action Scholarships 21:49 Final Testimonies and Offer
In this episode of Unashamed, Unafraid, Mason and Sam welcome Mike Farr, a rock photographer, Spartan racer, husband to Jenny, and father to Wesley. Mike shares how his father leaving early, conflict with a stepfather, and feeling unlovable fueled a “character” that chased acceptance through music, drugs, escalating sexual behavior, and crime. He describes immersion in the late ’60s–’80s music scene, cocaine dealing, and eventual heroin addiction, repeated arrests, rehab attempts, and a Salvation Army program that helped him rebuild sobriety and career. After a six-year relapse, an overdose coma, and another arrest, he surrendered, returned to meetings, and found sustained recovery and service, including coaching sobriety on the Vans Warped Tour, framing God as his Father and a source of healing. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com 00:43 Recovery Check In 02:34 Introducing Mike Farr 04:03 How We Met 05:23 Childhood Wounds 07:49 Music And Drugs 12:08 Sex Addiction Escalates 15:54 God And Fatherhood 19:40 Tahoe Marriage Fallout 20:19 Stevie Ray Vaughan Wakeup 21:52 Wicked Wanda 22:34 Heroin Hooked and Sick 24:07 Intervention and Jail 26:00 Rehab Fail and Rick 28:02 Tank Talk and Release Mistake 30:33 Salvation Army Turnaround 32:35 Relapse 33:45 Overdose and Two Week Coma 37:23 Surrender 39:30 God's Tender Mercy 43:06 Service Life and Father God 45:14 Closing Song
Sam shares a previously unreleased conversation with Chris and Joshua about gratitude in recovery and healing through Christ. They discuss how gratitude helps overcome shame, challenges entitlement, and creates lasting change, while sharing personal stories of recovery, relationships, and faith. Buy Chris's favorite gratitude journal here Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Lost Clip Intro 00:56 Welcome and Gratitude Banter 01:21 Sam on God and Grace 02:13 Chris Gratitude List 03:06 Hair Talk Break 03:39 Why Gratitude Helps Recovery 05:01 Opposite of Gratitude 06:10 Entitlement vs Gods Love 06:49 Daily Gratitude Text Habit 10:10 Gratitude Journal Practice 11:41 Autumns Three Things 13:56 Three Things Challenge 15:04 Tag Us and Wrap Up
In this story episode of Unashamed, Unafraid, Sam and Mason interview Cam, a BYU construction management student preparing to commission as a combat engineer officer. He tells how his porn addiction grew out of achievement pressure, comparison with high-achieving siblings, and deep shame. After moving frequently and living in a high-performance community, Cam internalized “you’re stupid,” then attended a harmful youth program that taught him to see sexuality as evil and God as vengeful. Family stress, his dad losing a job, not getting into West Point, and later COVID intensified depression and escalated acting out, including on his mission. Through honest disclosure, therapy, sponsors, and “rescuing little Cam” with connection, self-care, and patience, Cam’s view of God shifted to a loving, patient healer, and with support from his wife he now reports 15 months sober and a renewed sense of purpose. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Welcome and UCAP Update 01:41 Meet Cam 02:31 Pressure and Shame Growing Up 04:23 Porn Exposure and Toxic Program 06:22 Family Stress and West Point Collapse 08:55 Rock Bottom and Escalation 09:42 Mission Struggles and God Image 12:28 Therapy and Finding Little Cam 16:04 Healing Through Pain and Self Care 19:41 Relationships and Marriage Safety 22:18 A New View of God 25:19 Your Own Recovery
This episode explores the emotional impact of criticism and how unresolved shame can fuel relapse in recovery. Sam shares a personal experience of being hurt by a negative review, which triggered old beliefs and led to a setback, while highlighting the importance of connection over isolation. Chris centers his comments on the concept of repair, taking accountability, seeking forgiveness, and asking others what healing looks like for them. Chris emphasizes that true repair is ultimately demonstrated through consistent change and living in alignment with one’s values. Lasting recovery is rooted in rebuilding trust, fostering connection, and pursuing ongoing personal growth. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com
In Part III of our series with returning guest Roxy Johnson, author of Forgotten in the Battle with Sexual Addiction, we dive deep into the role boundaries play in healing relationships impacted by sexual addiction and betrayal trauma. Roxy brings powerful insight and hard-earned wisdom on how boundaries protect peace, create honesty, and invite real recovery. Jasmine and Sam also open up about their own journey, discussing how surrendering a spouse to God while taking responsibility for yourself can transform a marriage. This conversation challenges the belief that boundaries are selfish and shows why healthy conflict can actually be a sign that healing is happening. If you or someone you love is navigating recovery, this episode offers practical hope, courage, and direction. Forgotten in the Battle With Sexual Addiction: The Journey of a Spouse www.forgottenspouse.com Purchase the book! Instagram Facebook Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com
In part two of the Unashamed, Unafraid series, the hosts discuss becoming unafraid to come unto Christ for healing in sexual addiction recovery by first learning who God truly is. He is kind, loving, forgiving, and relentless rather than judgmental. They explore how shame, secrecy, and “shame goggles” distort church, relationships, and one’s view of God, creating fear that keeps people from seeking healing. Chris shares a financial secrecy that nearly ended his marriage and how turning to God helped him accept support and accountability. Sam admits coasting in “manageable” relapse and delaying deeper healing. James identifies fear of God’s hard answers and commits to daily stillness, honesty, and obedience as a path to identity change and lasting recovery. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Welcome Back and Series Setup 02:08 Who God Really Is 03:41 Shame Goggles and Safe Spaces 06:20 Chris Financial Shame Story 10:31 Sam Coasting in Recovery 12:23 Peter in The Chosen Lesson 15:16 James Afraid of the Answer 18:49 Commitments 24:12 Wrap Up and Accountability
Chris and Sam sit down with Ryan Carnahan from King’s Core to explore the deeper layers of addiction recovery. From relapse and discouragement to identity shifts and emotional resilience, this conversation dives into what actually creates lasting change. Ryan shares his personal 15-year journey through pornography addiction, the turning points that led to healing, and the core framework he now uses to help other men break free. Together, they unpack the difference between surface-level sobriety and true transformation—highlighting the role of identity, community, and mindset in recovery. Free resources from Ryan here: kings-core.com/coaching-discovery-call kings-core.com/are-you-the-man-you-want-to-be-assessment skool.com/kings-core-9726/about?ref=1799799b641c438eb9c78eeb7805c734 https://www.kings-core.com/emotions-are-superpowers-training Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com
Sam, Chris, and James discuss what it means to be “unashamed” in sexual addiction recovery. Shame thrives in secrecy, silence, and judgment and that speaking openly breaks isolation. They explore how context and boundaries matter when sharing, distinguishing healthy vulnerability from “vomiting,” and noting that relapse often intensifies shame. Sam shares how he’s become able to admit recent relapse without spiraling, crediting safe community, repeated honest conversations, trauma therapy, and a spiritual experience that helped him accept he is still good even when he relapses. The group encourages listeners to cultivate emotionally safe relationships, face fear within that community, and find a personal “why” for living unashamed. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Welcome and Series Setup 01:04 What Unashamed Means 02:33 Shame Thrives in Silence 05:14 Sharing With Boundaries 07:00 Sobriety and Confidence 09:10 Sam Journey to Openness 11:12 God Moment Breakthrough 12:53 How to Get Unashamed 18:14 Cultivating Safe Community 19:27 Find Your Why 22:37 Brotherhood and Acceptance 25:24 Closing and Support the Show
In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, Sam and Mason welcome Drew Boa, author of Outgrow Porn and founder of Husband Material Ministries, who explains inner child work as understanding sexual temptation and intolerable emotional pain as implicit “body memory” rather than mature adult desire. Drew shares how recognizing his own sexual imprinting and connecting it to childhood trauma replaced self-hatred with self-compassion and inviting Jesus into wounded places. Using the cave rescue documentary as an analogy, he outlines a process of locating, loving, and leading multiple “inner boys,” emphasizing connection over control, co-regulation, curiosity-based questions, and identifying attachment needs beneath cravings, framing porn as a pacifier and a protest while encouraging courageous, hope-filled “redemptive risks.” Connect with Drew Boa: https://www.husbandmaterial.com/ https://www.drewboa.com/outgrow-porn Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Recovery Check In 03:23 Meet Drew Boa 06:01 What Is the Inner Child 09:10 Drew Story And Imprinting 12:33 Rescue The Boy Within 17:20 When Pain Triggers Relapse 21:14 Befriending Questions 23:55 Porn As Pacifier and a Protest 28:25 Face, Feel and Co Regulate 32:49 Hope And Redemptive Risk 34:32 Where To Find Drew 36:37 Wrap Up And Subscribe
In this Live Unashamed episode of Unashamed Unafraid, the hosts discuss the impact of sharing honest, raw stories in sexual addiction recovery and how storytelling combats the shame that fuels isolation and acting out. They explain that people connect through stories, and that naming taboo experiences with courage and vulnerability can break shame and bring healing. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com 00:00 Why Story Matters 03:23 Writing Your Story 05:02 Sharing With Sponsor 06:53 Timeline And The Good 10:39 Josh On Sharing 15:28 Chris on Going Public 18:15 Hope And Next Steps 19:44 Send Us Your Story
In this episode of Unashamed Unafraid, we return with Roxanna Johnson for a second recording as she explains how spouses are changed by the “dance” of addiction, why both partners have parallel recovery paths, and how hope can emerge over years of work. She teaches surrender as releasing control to God, addressing fear and hypervigilance, and emphasizes grieving, emotional regulation, movement with breath, journaling, and a step-by-step surrender practice, urging those struggling with addiction to “see” and validate their spouse’s pain while seeking the God who knows their name. Roxanna is the author of Forgotten in the Battle with Sexual Addiction, The Journey of a Spouse. *Check out Roxy's book on Amazon To connect with Roxy, send her an email: roxyj16@gmail.com or visit her Website , Facebook and Instagram Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com 00:00 Welcome and Check In 04:35 Spouses Need to Heal Too 08:07 The Recovery Dance 13:15 Surrendering Control 17:29 Fear and Trusting God 22:00 How to Support Your Wife 27:26 Grief and Healing 30:57 Six Steps to Surrender 38:14 God Knows Your Name 43:33 Closing and Resources
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Nathan Maxwell returns after a lost recording to share updated perspectives on recovery and marriage. He recounts early exposure to pornography in fourth grade, his parents’ divorce, his half-brother’s suicide, and how shame and suppressed grief fueled compulsive porn use and a growing need for validation from various sexual partners. Nathan describes how religious culture, lack of sex education, and scrupulosity shaped a belief that God hated him, contributing to misery and suicidal ideation. Recovery began when a church member introduced him to Unashamed, Unafraid, 12-step meetings, and boot camp. Nathan now lives with a changed view of God as a loving Father, and ongoing growth through setbacks and sobriety since November 2024. Make a donation and become an Outsider! Follow us on social media! Instagram , Facebook & TikTok Subscribe to our YouTube Check out our recommended resources Want to rep the message? Shop our MERCH ! For more inspiration, read our blog Do you have a story you are willing to share? Send us an email! contact@unashamedunafraid.com Timestamps: 00:00 Guidebook Update 01:32 Nathan Returns 03:24 Roots of Addiction 17:14 Bootcamp Breakthrough 19:01 Learning Gods Love 26:33 Golden Nuggets of Recovery
